Being able to come home and jump into your own bed, being able to pick up the phone
and call who you want, being able to smoke, being able to go outside and get fresh air. These are just some of the simple things that you might take advantage of everyday. When your locked up you cant do these things when you want or some of them at all.
Your life can change in a second. Something you do that only takes a few seconds can
change your life FOREVER. This is something that makes me think long and hard now before acting without thinking.
Before I would react without blinking an eye. If you got in my face I wouldn't even think twice about smashing your face in or even trying to really hurt you. Now when someone gets into my face I try my best to just walk away. I have things I can lose. I have a family that cares about me, I have animals that need me to take care of them, and I have people in my life that love and care for me. Oh course if someone comes at me I'm going to defend myself but I act nothing like what I used to before I got a taste of having my freedom taken away from me.
Bottom line think before you act. Think if its REALLY worth having your freedom taken
away from you. When you belong to the state your nothing but a number, you have no fucking rights, don't believe all that bullshit, they treat you like shit and that's the ones that are
there to "protect you". That's not even mentioning the other prisoners that will test you every chance they get.
You might be going in for something simple and because someone tested you or tried to take something from you, your now going to spend years of your life in a fucking rat hole.
So stay up, stay calm and think before you act. Remember what goes around comes around and Karma doesn't sleep!
6 comments:
You know what really sucks about being on parole. If someone knows that you are on parole and they have a beef with you all they have to do is make one phone call with a false accusation and boom, your gone on a violation. When you're a parolee you don't have any rights. They just take people's words as face value. That's why it is so important for me to turn the other cheek and be agreeable. But when I got off paper, please don't test me.
Glad to see you're so happy with your gf and beautiful animals.
Don't Stop
Yes it does suck and I dont think you have any rights either because anyone can call up and say fucking whatever about you and the cops will take you in and beleive them.
Right now Im out on 2bails and I have an order of protection against me so I REALLY need to watch myself and think twice about how I react to things.
there is alot to be said for taking a deep breath and thinking things through, don't give anyone the satisfacion of getting a rise out of you, cuz more often than not, that's what they want.
Hey Chick,
I am from Baltimore and I have been reading your blog for a minute now. I like...I am 41 and got in the "system" at 26. It took me almost 11 years to get out..Finally no more parole, probation etc...I agree with you. I value my freedom more than anything now. The choices I make these days are always tempered with the thought, "could I go to jail"...crazy huh? I love animals also, I have a pit mix, we found him in a dope house when he was 6 weeks, starving and skinny.. He is now almost a year and the best damn dog you could ask for...Just wanted you to know someone is reading you in Baltimore...
Peace...Lori
Jamillia & Lori just wanted to say thanks for reading my blog and keep on coming back and showing love.
As I said right now I'm out on 2bails and for me to go and put them cuffs put on me again i know i wouldnt come home for a minute. My freedom is worth more then these bitches who cant even shine my shoes.
I think it's shit that just because you made some mistakes/bad choices that there would be no objectivity or investigations into any reports made about you. That a system would take the word or some anonymous person and assume that it was the truth is crazy! And to not only believe a "tip" or accusation offhand, but to take away a person's freedom based on it just blows my mind. I guess that may be a bit naive of me, but wow. You sound pretty mature for what I'm guessing is around my age (20's), and you write about things and express a depth of thinking that I don't find in too many people my age.
Felicia
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