Awkward?

Here's to my good homie Sarcastic Bastard.

I just found THIS site yesterday and was going to blog about it today. Here I come looking around and see SB got to it before. All good, all good.
I still need to post

Just
A
Few
Random
Pictures

From this Crazy ass site!

So enjoy the ones I have posted and then feel free to look around the site for yourself.
Shit maybe we should do something with this site on Fridays? What you think SB?
You know how the G-Man Has Flash 55 on Fridays, maybe we can have "Friday Fucktards"?
Or...... " Awkward Assholes" ?

For Today

I kept meaning to update but I have to say I have been a little busy, in a good way. I have been staying good and trying to remain clean, only drinking my juice.
I am looking for steady work. I have been helping my mother do some work around her house seeing as my dick for a brother wouldn't do anything unless he was paid.
I have been maintaining my house with my wife. You know taking care of the babies, laundry, food shopping, and anything I can help her with.
I'm REALLY trying to stay in a good place and keep doing well.
You know what sucks for me is, one of my main triggers is money and I'm not rich but I always manage to have it.
I always make sure I save, or know I have something coming in, or something on the burner to make or get more.
So always having money makes my "evil brain" send me hints that I can get a few bags today, or because I have been good again my evil brain tells me "you have been good, so treat yourself ".
I invested money into a massage table and I'm trying to build my client list up.
I am a certified and I have sent my resume to many spas, and psychical therapy offices and it just seems like no one is hiring.
With all that being said for TODAY I am being positive and trying to keep my head up and do right.
I thank all the people who have shown me mad love and support!
Stay Up!

NYC BSL RALLY!

On 7/23 were going to a rally to keep the BSL law from passing here in NY. It has already been passed in other states!

It's going to be in Washington Square Park at 6PM and I can't wait. I'm fighting for a cause I am very passionate about! I don't think it's right to punish a whole breed for dogs because of dumb people who use and abuse pit bulls.
If they do it to pit bulls who's to say there not going to do it to Dobermans, or Boxers?
I know Pit bulls are always in the headlines when something bad happens but what about when something good happens?
What about when a Pit bull is rescued and makes a family happy? What about when A pit bull is rescued and it shows people that despite having been abused for years it can still get and GIVE love!!

So if your in New York and you can come support that would be great! The more voices maybe, just maybe we can be heard!

I will take some pictures and blog about it the day after or so. That's hoping I don't get arrested!
I can't promise anything my people, this is something that rips at my heart and if I get a little loud then so be it!
I have seen TOO MANY pit bulls who died or lived a lifetime of misery and they need to be treated like any other dog! They need to loved and cared for!!
I think I could go on and on with this topic.
"Punish the deed not the breed"
Stay Up!

No Comparison

I feel like it has been forever since I last posted but it has only been a little over 2 weeks if I am correct.
What to say?
Hmmmm....
Well I'm still trying to maintain my life.
Things aren't going so well with my brother and sister. As of now I am fighting with them mainly because of the way they treat my mother.
The way I see it is they treat her like a bank card, they only come around or call when they want or need something.
My sister who lives upstate New York has not been to Brooklyn to visit my mother in about 10years!
When my mother was diagnosed with diabetes and was in the hospital for a week, also on Mothers Day mind you she did not come to visit, not a ONCE!
My brother lives in NJ and comes to NY every night because he works for NYC transit. Again he only comes around my mother when he wants something or needs something.
I have not spoken to my brother since he acted like a total DICK and didn't even call my mother on her birthday. I blogged about it here.
I have tried to make a relationship with my sister and it is painfully obvious that she has made her own life and doesn't give a fuck what goes on down here and probably the next time I will see her will be at one of my family members funeral, unless it's my father then she won't see me there.
I'm sure that when my mother passes she will be waiting for her "cut" of what she THINKS shes going to get.
I told my mother that when she dies my family is dead and I truly mean that.
My mom and my wife are the only family I feel I have, and of course my fur babies!
It just sucks because it shows me how they really don't give a fuck about my mom, its like there sitting around waiting for her to die and it makes me fucking SICK!
I know I wasn't the best daughter. I know I did things that hurt my mother. I know I made my mother worry many days and nights when I was out drugging.
I can't make up for the past and I thank God that my mother doesn't hold it against me or try to hurt me with it like other family members have done and still do.
The relationship I have with my mother now is so cool and I am truly grateful for it. I just wish that my brother and sister could see how badly there hurting my mother.
I'm sure when shes gone there going to regret it but then it will be too late.
Maybe they think the same way about me and my relationship with my father but you know what, my father was and still is a loser, gambler, alcoholic, scumbag. My mother did everything she could to make us happy. I think she did a dam fine job with the cards she had!
So if they want to compare, in my mind there is no comparison!
Anyways this is a big enough rant.
Hope all my blogger homies are doing well!
Stay Up!

Great Weekend!

Just a quick post to say whats going on in my life.
Had a GREAT 4TH of July Weekend. Went to a big cookout at one of Gypsy's friends house. Had all kinds of good food to eat. Beer & Liquor to who likes to drink. There were a few people in recovery but they didn't mind that the drinking was going on.
Anyways after the cookout we headed to the roof to watch the fireworks. Now if you never lived in Brooklyn and seen the fireworks on a rooftop you are missing something great!
It was great, brought me back to when I was a kid.
When I was younger my father used to go to China Town and buy at least 500-1000 bucks worth of fireworks for our block.
We used to have a block party, everyone would cook and then once the sun went down we set up shop!
People from all over used to come just to watch my fathers firework show! He did it for at least 10 years. My father was getting worse and worse in his addictions that it just died out like he did.
Anyways after the rooftop firework show we went back down for ice cream soda floats and just good conversation!
Gypsy and I didn't get home till about 4am!
We slept late on Sunday, got some cleaning done and then cooked a nice meal for ourselves as we watched a few movies.
White Oleander was one of them, anyone see it? It was a great movie to me!

Other then all of that I felt like Monday came too fast.
To all my peeps that give a fuck about me, thanks alot it really means alot to me!
I'm going to try to keep up with this blog more. Only sometimes when I go to blog it doesn't come out right or at all.
Does that ever happen to anyone else that blogs?
Hope all is well!
Stay Up!