Blog Problems?

All the blogs I was following somehow are not listed anymore. Did this happen to anyone else?

I have never had any kind of problems like this before, never either real problems with blogger itself.
I find this really strange because I was on the computer till about 7AM and it was fine then.
I come home now @ 6PM and now this?
WTF?!?

Anyways now I have to go around and add people all over again? What a pain in the ass!
So if I don't post on your blog for a few I might have forgotten about your blog so please don't take it personal.

Ready For Holidays?

Just wondering if everyone is getting ready for the holidays.

Have you shopped? Finished shopping? Mailed cards? Made lists?

I myself don't have many people to shop for, however I have alot of people I need to send cards to.

I need to get on the ball and get shit done.

I want this Christmas to be REALLY nice for Gypsy & myself. I am lucky to be alive and for us to be together so I want to go all out for her.
I have been buying her gifts one at a time and stocking stuffers as well. So I am trying to get her everything that she has been telling me she wants.
The only thing I know for sure I won't be able to get her is the 17 inch MAC PRO BOOK she wants. That shit costs like $ 2500.00! So not this year that is for sure! Maybe another laptop but just not that one...

Anywhoo hope your making a list and checking it twice!
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RIP BUSTER

Sorry for not posting as much as I should be just ALOT going on and so little time.

Here's the breakdown on what has been going down.

On December 7Th I have been out of the hospital a month and doing very well. I am keeping up with my diet and lost 24 lbs (since being in hospital till now).
I have been going to my Doctor and then the Lab to have blood drawn to make sure my PT/INR levels are correct because I am on a powerful blood thinner Coumadin.
So far so good.

Then on the 29Th my good friend Lisa is back in the hospital. She is in ICU and practically died. She had tested positive for swine flu, gotten a fever of 103 and had to be intubated because she couldn't even breathe!
She had a hard time fighting off the fever and the flu, however she is getting better.
As of now she is still in ICU but waiting to be put on another floor to rest and re-coop

Last night I got some REALLY bad news. Lisa's sister called to tell me that Buster, Lisa's cat had been found dead in her apartment.
I went on Wednesday and he was fine. I left him food and water. I cleaned the litter for him and kept the windows open a bit to get some fresh air. Her friend went on Saturday and said he didn't really eat much and that's not like him. When she went back on Sunday she found him passed away in the apartment.
Seeing Lisa tested positive for Swine Flu and that is what were thinking might have happened to him.
Also Buster had Tumors so one might have ruptured we don't know and we will never know.
When her Sister called me to tell me and I was crying of course and she said that she couldn't go in there and take him out, couldn't touch him like that you know.
I said i would do it.
I felt like we saved Buster and I'm going to go get him and bring him to the vet and MAKE SURE he gets the proper care.
I went and got him and we brought him to the the vet to be cremated.

I feel horrible and I want to know when were going to catch a break, it just seems like blow after blow after blow.

Other then all this and that shit going on I am proud to say that I have been clean since October 15TH!
I know it is barely a month but I am very proud that I have this clean time under my belt and want to keep it up. I have been keeping busy and just taking it day by day. I go to my program do my thing and break out.
I don't hang out, and the people I do talk to are not many at all. It's crazy because it is like ALL of them are ALWAYS looking for a favor, or a handout or begging for shit and I am SO over it and so tired of the BULLSHIT stories and how fucking FAKE they are!
Well that is the deal and again alot has been going on and I am trying to do my thing by staying clean and doing the right thing.
I am thinking of going back to school for computer programing and engineering because I have taught myself alot of things on my own.
when our computer breaks down I always fix it myself. So after the new year I am going to look into it.
Hope everyone is getting ready for the Holidays...
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It Was Not My Time To Go..

Well it has been a few since I posted last and there is a very BIG reason as to why.

About 2months ago I had this pain in my left leg, it was a pinching kind of pain and it stayed with me for only about 2days and then it went away. I thought being it went away that I might have pulled something and it was no biggie and it was gone.
Well about 2-3 weeks after the pain in my leg I started having trouble breathing. I thought because I'm a smoker, and didn't eat right that was the reason as to why this was happening.
Well 2days after this started happening to me on October 15Th I was having a VERY hard time breathing and I mean VERY!
I was at my mothers house and told her to call a cab for me that I was going to go to my program first and then after that to the hospital to see what was going on with me.
When I got to the program in the cab I opened the door and I fell out because I couldn't even hold myself up!
A good friend of mine David ran inside and told them what was going on and they rushed out with a wheelchair and then rushed me inside.
I told them I couldn't breath and I needed an ambulance.
The ambulance came in about 3min. I was so weak I couldn't even make the step up into the ambulance.
Also I was loosing oxygen at a very fast rate! I passed out while in the ambulance and then woke up again in the emergence room with tons of Doctors and nurses all around me.
They started undressing me and poking me with needles. Finally they undressed me and took off all my jewelry and one of the last things I remember was one of the doctors saying "fuck this, her face is turning gray and her feet are purple".
Now what happened after that I am only told from Gypsy and the Doctors because it was REALLY bad.
Here it is in a nut shell.

What caused all this was, that pain in my leg was a blood clot and it took 3 weeks to move from my leg to my lungs.
Most people die from having ONE blood clot I had THREE!
Blood clots go where there is air, your lungs, heart or brain. I was lucky because it went to my lungs, anywhere else I would have died more then 90% sure on that the doctors said.

I went into cardiac arrest for 7-8 min and they brought me back.
When they brought me back I was in a drug induced coma for 6days.
The doctor told Gypsy we are taking this minute by minute right now because it is really bad.

When I was in a coma I could still hear Gypsy, my mother, my brother and even my father came to stay by my side, I'm telling you it was looking REALLY BAD.
Gypsy said she said to me "Baby you got to fight for us" and then I shook my head as hard as I could.
Then she said "Show me those beautiful brown eyes", she said I opened one eye and a tear came out!
The doctors were telling her that because I flat lined for so long brain damage might have happened and to be prepared for anything IF or when I come out..
So after 6 days in a coma I just woke up! I woke up and asked for a cigarette first. LOL. Then I asked for Gypsy.

I was in ICU and when I came out I had all these tubes sticking out of everywhere on me.
My kidneys took a REALLY bad blow.
I had 90% kidney failure.
So after I woke up I had to do Dialysis for 4 hrs at a time.
They put a shunt in me that they use for Dialysis and people that are going to be on it for a long time.
It is right above my right breast.
So here is the rundown on what I had done to me

3 blood clots in my lungs
7-8min flat lined
6 days in a coma
Five 4hr Dialysis treatments
3 Blood transfusions
Many Many IV's
I had a PICC LINE (Mine had 3 outlets)

After coming out of ICU my body started to heal at a rapid pace on it OWN!
I had all the doctors scratching their heads on how I was healing after what I been threw!

Let me tell you it has been a long and hard journey for myself as well as Gypsy and my family.
I am very grateful to even be alive.
To be told so many times by so many doctors that I should be dead is a BIG trip!

I look at life VERY differently right now.
The whole time in the hospital I did not smoke however I came out this Saturday and I have had only 2 so I'm doing pretty good! It's not going to be easy but I'm going to quit them all together!!

I want to thank everyone who sent me flowers, a card, said a prayer, kept me in your thoughts or just sent out positive vibes!
It means the world to me also to know people were there for Gypsy when I couldn't be 100%!

So that is about it in a nutshell.
Oh and if anyone is wondering if I saw anything while being dead the answer is yes.
I saw a rainbow and dogs and cats. Some who I knew, some who I saved, some who I tried to save!
I believe I was headed to The Rainbow Bridge!
So if that is where I was headed I am more then happy with that!

Once again God is good..& I'm alive and taking it day by day right now!!
Five 4hr Dialysis treatments

NICO

Sorry for not updating more often, our lives have been majorly busy!

After FOUR came and we took care of him and he left we had about 5days of down time before another dog came right in that REALLY needed our help!
Oh here is the update and just to let everyone know FOUR has gotten a "furever home"!!!! YAY!!!

Ok so the dog we have now we named him NICO and when he came to us he was a MESS!
They cut his ears off with a scissor, they kept him in the same room for over 2 years where he would piss, shit, eat & sleep 24/7. This was Nico when he 1st came to us
He was never walked on a leash, didn't even know what it was to be out side and smell trees, pick up his leg to pee, to run around with other dogs and basically be a DOG!!

So we got him house broken in 2days, got him walking on a leash with no problems.
He knows commands such as sit, stay, wait, up, & down.

Also something we teach out dogs to do is that when we are feeding them before we put the dish of food down we make them sit and wait.
Once we say the command "go eat" that is when they are allowed to eat, another thing Nico picked up on quick.
He is a big dog and very smart.
He is going to make his owner proud!!

This is how Nico looks so far

Now of course I have blogged about how the people in my park are when I come in with my pit bulls but today was something else I tell ya.
What happened was I took Nico & Bandit to the park. Now seeing as everything is new to Nico when he see a child riding a bike, running, or riding a scooter, or maybe playing some kind of ball he gets EXCITED not AGGRESSIVE BIG fucking difference!
Some guy said to me " you nee to get those dog out of the park now ". Now if you know me you know that I did not stay shut, then out of the blue a woman comes up to me and says " I have pit bulls and I know he was just playing, someone just called 911 on you so please just go so you don't get into trouble, if not for you for the dogs ".
So next thing I see is 3 people taking my picture! I went fucking nuts! Who the FUCK do you think you are taking MY picture!!

So I went home brought Bandit up and took out Nico & Harley.
I sat down in the park and all the people who took my picture and were complaining were gone!
I lit up a smoke and next thing I know 8 cops come up to me and start asking questions:

Was your dog off leash? No!
Did your dog Attack anyone? No, and if he did wouldn't there be blood everywhere?
Was your dog looking to attack the children or people? No!

I gave the female cop the rundown on Nico, how everything is new to him and so on.
She understood and so did the others. Now for some reason there is ALWAYS one cop who has a fucking bad attitude and I just wanted to punch him, either he didn't like pit bulls or me, whatever the case fuck it.
So the female made a little report, took my info and that was that!
I said you need to tell these people to stop making false claims, that's what you need to do.
Nico even went up to one of the cops and was giving him kisses and I had treats that the cop was giving him and it was great on my part. Showed that the people were just plain out lying!!!!


So we have had Nico going on a week and he is getting better day by day. Learning new things, gaining weight and just learning how to be a dog.

Gypsy is doing her thing working & I'm doing my thing working as well.
I have been taking less clients due to the fact I need to make sure our animals are taking care of and that they are not left alone for long of a time period.

Trying to stay out of trouble, clean and out of the mix. It is hard but her one day at a time right?!!?
Hope everything is good with my readers!
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FOUR Update

QUICK UPDATE ON FOUR:

Four went from Gypsy & sKILLz home in Brooklyn today to Courtney’s apartment on the Upper East Side of Manhattan. We had a fabulous, albeit exhausting day at the vet, going back and forth to Petco and walking the streets of New York City with friends.

Four loves car rides and if you don't go fast enough he will start to talk to you as if he is begging you to speed up. He adores having his head out the window, too. But it seems I didn't roll it down far enough for him so what did he do? He found the automatic button and pushed it down himself! I wasn't about to risk having him leap out of the car while I was doing 65 mph down the FDR so up went the windows and on went the child safety locks! Of course he didn’t like that one bit and began to bark incessantly.

Four rocked the traditional foster-wear “adopt me” garb during our five hour excursion in Manhattan today and I have to say, he drew a lot of interest from passersby. As for the vet, Four weighed in at a healthy 53 pounds. He confirmed that Four is at least 10 years of age, if not 12, which is what we were previously told. He was prescribed eye drops for teary, mucus-filled eyes and some ear drops for an infection in his left ear. We also ran some minor tests and will not have those results back until Monday. I will say that the subject of neutering him, at his age, remains a debatable topic and appears to differ from vet to vet.

The good news is that while we want to market Four locally in New York City for a bit, we do have options as far north in Rochester, as far south in North Carolina and as far west in California. If one thing is for sure it is that Four’s story has touched FORTY people, if not more, and that speaks volumes...

Fostering Because Of FuckTards!

Gypsy and I got a call on Thursday that a dog was in desperate need of help and only needed to stay the weekend. I told her if that is the case then it's cool as long as it is for ONLY the weekend. I reminded her that MYLA was only supposed to stay for 2 weeks and she is still here a year later.
We tend to fall in love, how can you not when the dogs are GREAT!?!

So this is the deal on the dog.
His name is FOUR. He is what they say 12 yrs old but I think he is much younger from the way he acts.
The people that owned him had him for all those years and then found a new place to live that did not take pets.
So they DUMPED Four at the ACC saying they could not take him because they wanted to move into this new place and they are leaving Four behind.
Now I'm sorry but if you have a pet for YEARS and then your looking for a new place I don't care how great it may be if they don't take pets then I'm NOT going! My animals are part of my family and if you don't take them then you don't take me just that simple!

Anyways, Four was pulled from the shelter because last night we has going to be put down forever.
The rescue we are working with brought Four last night and they said he really didn't know commands and shit.
We don't listen to anything really, we see for ourselves when the animal gets here.
So this is the deal on Four:

He knows fetch and he drops it right at your feet or you tell him to "drop it" and he will let go and is ready for more.
He knows sit, give me your paw, up, lay down, and also knows when he needs to go out and starts to let you know by staying by the door.
He is a REALLY cool dog and I'm kind of surprised someone would just dump him like that when he is so darn cool!

He gets along with other dogs, sometimes wanting to play and others just wanting to do his own thing.
He could care less about cats, even after one of mine gave him a little slap in the face he didn't care. LOL.
He sleeps nice, all tucked away in a ball.
He also likes to sing we have discovered.
I was letting my other Shih Tzu, Harley Davidson do his singing act and right along came FOUR howling and singing!
I KNOW he will make someone a proud, happy pit bull mommy or daddy!
Here is a Picture of FOUR.

The rescue group called us today and said she had someone to take him in for a longer foster and she will come and get him Saturday night.
So this post is not only about us taking in the foster dog and helping save another animal in need, it is about the FUCKTARDS who dumped Four in the ACC where he almost died for no reason other then selfishness!
Hope everyone is doing well and Stay Up!

Record Breaking & Never Forgetting!!!

Been kind of busy this past week that's the reason for not posting.
Today my wife and I are going to the Yankee Game tonight. It can be a history game if Derek Jeter hits I believe 4 runs to break Lou Gehrig's record.
I'm a big Met fan but being from NY I have love for ALL NY teams!

Also this coming Friday 9/11 Jay-Z is having a concert at Madison Square Gardens and guess what bitches we have tickets!!!
For those that don't have tickets it is going to be shown LIVE on Fuse.tv
It is going to be a BIG event, it is a benefit concert for all the 9/11 first responders and the lives that were lost and effected from that terrible act.
In a way I am happy to be going because it is Jay-Z and there's word that Beyonce is going to be there as well as Kanye West, Rihanna and maybe a few other top hitters!
In a way it is a sad moment because of what the concert is for.
Last night The National Geographic Channel had a 2hour documentary on 9/11 the recordings from the scumbags who hijacked the airplane and people who were calling their loved ones because they knew they were going to die.
Also watching the footage of the people who jumped from the Trade center makes me cry just thinking of it.




It is a day I will NEVER forget, I remember where I was, what I was doing and I also remember watching people coming over the Brooklyn Bridge cover in ash.
The looks they had on their faces were as if they were zombies and they haven't even taken in everything they had seen in the past few hours.
I'm sure being a New Yorker makes me feel it, but ANY human with half a heart feels the pain of that day.
I can not believe that it is going to be 8 years since it has happened, feels like it was yesterday, to me anyways.
With all that being said I think if you blog you should just write a little something paying respects to the people who lost their lives as well as all the families and people that have been effected from this.
Maybe a blog on where you were and what you remember from that day?
Other then that I am looking forward to our 2 events this week and hope everyone has a good one!
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Friday Fucktards!

Here we are my people for another episode of Friday Fucktards!

Here is one that needs NO introduction, unless you have been living under a rock for the past few months!

He is not only a fucking asshole but a greedy killer!

Here is a video of a waste of life that I would to have 5 minute's alone with!
This is one of the reason's as to why I hate most people!

YOU KNOW!!!

I HAVE to post this! Too funny!

That's right fucker I'm all giggles from this. If this doesn't make you laugh just a little then you have NO sense of humor!
Oh and if someone kicked MY dog there would be NOOOO talking just to let you know!

Enjoy & Stay Up!

Friday Fucktards!

So here we are for another episode of my "Friday Fucktards". I am pushing this on other bloggers & please if you do your own version please post my link and let me know as well to see what Tards you found out about & posted on!
Let's face it people, I think almost everyday someone does something that makes you say What The Fuck?!? Today was a Russian woman on the bus playing like she did not speak English & she didn't know that you had to pay $2.25 or have an unlimited Metrocard in order to "pay yo fare" an ride the bus.
The bus driver was not having it and stopped the bus and just looked at her while the woman was fumbling around in her change purse looking for money, and making like she either didn't have it or didn't understand.
Now after a good 30seconds people started yelling "let's go", "If you don't have the fare then get the fuck off the bus". Well you know us Brooklyn Bitches we are welcoming & friendly.
Finally she took a Metro Card out of her wallet and dipped it in. I just looked at her and said "You are one cheap bitch. You had it all along and you TRIED to get away with NOT FUCKING PAYING & made everyone of us wait on YOU"!! "You think everyone here wants to pay, no but we DO"!
I wanted to fucking Bitch slap her! ( I didn't ) ( I really wanted to though )
The bus driver gave her a cold look and finally we were on our way.

On another note I'm going to leave you with a video of some real assholes!
One of my favorite moments is the guy on the bike at the 2:26 mark! OUCH!


Other then that I had a great birthday & BIG thanks to everyone who commented! Gypsy went out of her way to make it really nice for me and US!
Hope everyone has a great weekend!
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My Birthday Weekend

Sorry for not posting my weekly Fuck Tard Friday.
Thursday was my birthday so I been a little busy.
I'm going out this weekend with Gypsy and were going to have a good time. Got lots of good plans.
If your thinking of getting a gift for me cash is ALWAYS a plus! ;)
I will post how it went and shit probably next week or so.
I just wanted to update really quick and let my peeps know what the deal is with me.
I hope everyone is doing well, and all is good with you and yours!
If you need to holla at me with something pressing then you know my email!
Everyone have a GREAT weekend because I know I'm going to!
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Friday Fucktards!

Here's another installment of Friday FuckTards!

OK these people are not only stupid but posted pictures of themselves and how much of a tard they are!
Enjoy!!

Look at this JERK who shot himself without a gun!

Here is another asshole move:
A judge has ordered a 17-year-old to pay a $750 fine and perform 120 hours of community service for contaminating salad dressing with semen and returning it to a suburban Chicago high school's cafeteria... [Marco] Castro... admitted taking a bottle of ranch salad dressing from the school cafeteria to the bathroom and ejaculating into it, and then returning it to the cafeteria where juniors and seniors eat lunch... There were no reported cases of illness following the incident.

Then there is this guy who seems to have some kind of weird M&M fetish. Or he simply is just a tard!

Finally let us not forget the wonderful photos people send in from one of my famous sites!
Here
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Hope you have enjoyed this weeks edition! Be sure to check back every Friday as I will try my very best to keep this going.
If you have a pic or a website that you would like for me to post up on here then shoot me a email at:
sdawgz13@yahoo.com

Other then that the weekend is here so I hope everyone enjoys there weekend and has a good time doing whatever.
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Awkward?

Here's to my good homie Sarcastic Bastard.

I just found THIS site yesterday and was going to blog about it today. Here I come looking around and see SB got to it before. All good, all good.
I still need to post

Just
A
Few
Random
Pictures

From this Crazy ass site!

So enjoy the ones I have posted and then feel free to look around the site for yourself.
Shit maybe we should do something with this site on Fridays? What you think SB?
You know how the G-Man Has Flash 55 on Fridays, maybe we can have "Friday Fucktards"?
Or...... " Awkward Assholes" ?

For Today

I kept meaning to update but I have to say I have been a little busy, in a good way. I have been staying good and trying to remain clean, only drinking my juice.
I am looking for steady work. I have been helping my mother do some work around her house seeing as my dick for a brother wouldn't do anything unless he was paid.
I have been maintaining my house with my wife. You know taking care of the babies, laundry, food shopping, and anything I can help her with.
I'm REALLY trying to stay in a good place and keep doing well.
You know what sucks for me is, one of my main triggers is money and I'm not rich but I always manage to have it.
I always make sure I save, or know I have something coming in, or something on the burner to make or get more.
So always having money makes my "evil brain" send me hints that I can get a few bags today, or because I have been good again my evil brain tells me "you have been good, so treat yourself ".
I invested money into a massage table and I'm trying to build my client list up.
I am a certified and I have sent my resume to many spas, and psychical therapy offices and it just seems like no one is hiring.
With all that being said for TODAY I am being positive and trying to keep my head up and do right.
I thank all the people who have shown me mad love and support!
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NYC BSL RALLY!

On 7/23 were going to a rally to keep the BSL law from passing here in NY. It has already been passed in other states!

It's going to be in Washington Square Park at 6PM and I can't wait. I'm fighting for a cause I am very passionate about! I don't think it's right to punish a whole breed for dogs because of dumb people who use and abuse pit bulls.
If they do it to pit bulls who's to say there not going to do it to Dobermans, or Boxers?
I know Pit bulls are always in the headlines when something bad happens but what about when something good happens?
What about when a Pit bull is rescued and makes a family happy? What about when A pit bull is rescued and it shows people that despite having been abused for years it can still get and GIVE love!!

So if your in New York and you can come support that would be great! The more voices maybe, just maybe we can be heard!

I will take some pictures and blog about it the day after or so. That's hoping I don't get arrested!
I can't promise anything my people, this is something that rips at my heart and if I get a little loud then so be it!
I have seen TOO MANY pit bulls who died or lived a lifetime of misery and they need to be treated like any other dog! They need to loved and cared for!!
I think I could go on and on with this topic.
"Punish the deed not the breed"
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No Comparison

I feel like it has been forever since I last posted but it has only been a little over 2 weeks if I am correct.
What to say?
Hmmmm....
Well I'm still trying to maintain my life.
Things aren't going so well with my brother and sister. As of now I am fighting with them mainly because of the way they treat my mother.
The way I see it is they treat her like a bank card, they only come around or call when they want or need something.
My sister who lives upstate New York has not been to Brooklyn to visit my mother in about 10years!
When my mother was diagnosed with diabetes and was in the hospital for a week, also on Mothers Day mind you she did not come to visit, not a ONCE!
My brother lives in NJ and comes to NY every night because he works for NYC transit. Again he only comes around my mother when he wants something or needs something.
I have not spoken to my brother since he acted like a total DICK and didn't even call my mother on her birthday. I blogged about it here.
I have tried to make a relationship with my sister and it is painfully obvious that she has made her own life and doesn't give a fuck what goes on down here and probably the next time I will see her will be at one of my family members funeral, unless it's my father then she won't see me there.
I'm sure that when my mother passes she will be waiting for her "cut" of what she THINKS shes going to get.
I told my mother that when she dies my family is dead and I truly mean that.
My mom and my wife are the only family I feel I have, and of course my fur babies!
It just sucks because it shows me how they really don't give a fuck about my mom, its like there sitting around waiting for her to die and it makes me fucking SICK!
I know I wasn't the best daughter. I know I did things that hurt my mother. I know I made my mother worry many days and nights when I was out drugging.
I can't make up for the past and I thank God that my mother doesn't hold it against me or try to hurt me with it like other family members have done and still do.
The relationship I have with my mother now is so cool and I am truly grateful for it. I just wish that my brother and sister could see how badly there hurting my mother.
I'm sure when shes gone there going to regret it but then it will be too late.
Maybe they think the same way about me and my relationship with my father but you know what, my father was and still is a loser, gambler, alcoholic, scumbag. My mother did everything she could to make us happy. I think she did a dam fine job with the cards she had!
So if they want to compare, in my mind there is no comparison!
Anyways this is a big enough rant.
Hope all my blogger homies are doing well!
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Great Weekend!

Just a quick post to say whats going on in my life.
Had a GREAT 4TH of July Weekend. Went to a big cookout at one of Gypsy's friends house. Had all kinds of good food to eat. Beer & Liquor to who likes to drink. There were a few people in recovery but they didn't mind that the drinking was going on.
Anyways after the cookout we headed to the roof to watch the fireworks. Now if you never lived in Brooklyn and seen the fireworks on a rooftop you are missing something great!
It was great, brought me back to when I was a kid.
When I was younger my father used to go to China Town and buy at least 500-1000 bucks worth of fireworks for our block.
We used to have a block party, everyone would cook and then once the sun went down we set up shop!
People from all over used to come just to watch my fathers firework show! He did it for at least 10 years. My father was getting worse and worse in his addictions that it just died out like he did.
Anyways after the rooftop firework show we went back down for ice cream soda floats and just good conversation!
Gypsy and I didn't get home till about 4am!
We slept late on Sunday, got some cleaning done and then cooked a nice meal for ourselves as we watched a few movies.
White Oleander was one of them, anyone see it? It was a great movie to me!

Other then all of that I felt like Monday came too fast.
To all my peeps that give a fuck about me, thanks alot it really means alot to me!
I'm going to try to keep up with this blog more. Only sometimes when I go to blog it doesn't come out right or at all.
Does that ever happen to anyone else that blogs?
Hope all is well!
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My Mother Is My Father

Today is fathers day and I haven't spoken to my father in about 10 years. He still talks to my older sister, and brother.
See they for some reason still choose to keep in touch with him. I think they feel sorry for him more then anything.
My father was an alcoholic, and is still a very bad gambler. So every so often he calls needing money for this and that and I can't say if they give it to him or not because as soon as the topic of him comes up I shut it right down.
I let them know I don't want to know anything about him and frankly I could care less what's going on in his life.
He is a liar, a cheat, and did my mother dirty for many years.
He used to make lots of money being a bookie. He had one of the biggest illegal street number business going in Brooklyn at one point so money was not a problem.
One thing I can't front on is that he bought us everything we ever needed or wanted.
However that did not make up for the many nights wouldn't come home at a time. The times he would come home piss drunk and take it out on one of us.
the times he would come home from losing money and take it out on one or all of us.
As time went on he started gambling more and more and losing money more and more.
So many times he couldn't even give my mother money to pay bills & my mother would come up with the money to make sure we had what we needed, sometimes not what we wanted. What we wanted was not an option sometimes.
My father just got worse and worse and time after time my mother would kick him out and then because my sister & brother wanted him back she would take him back.
He would give the same promises, and lies and never keep his word and this kept going on for years.

I was drugging hard however still living at home.
He had lost his bookie business. Had no money, no friends, and I nor my mother even spoke to him and he was living under the same roof.
My father was living there only because my mother felt sorry for him because he had nowhere to go.
My father always plays the lotto, every chance he gets he plays. Like most people he sticks with the same numbers everyday.
So one night the lotto came out and his numbers were the hit.
My mother confronted him and he said that he didn't play because he wasn't able to get them in on time.

Make a long story short.
He did win.
He won over 20 grand.
He had my brothers wife cash the ticket so he would avoid paying overdue taxes.
He gave my brother and sister 5 grand each.
My mother confronted my brother and his wife and the flat out lied to her face.
My mother confronted my father and he flat out lied to her face.
Finally a week later my mother tricked my brothers wife and made her spill the beans.
So that night was the only blow out.
My mother told my father to leave and never come back.
He said "I will leave at the end of the month". Like the nigga was paying rent or something.
My mothers response was "No you will leave NOW, not tomorrow, but right NOW".
He tried to say that he was going to give my mother money, and that he was also going to give me money even though he knew it was going on drugs but that because she was doing this she blew it for her and myself.
He wasn't going to give us SHIT. He was trying to hide it so that he didn't have to give us anything.
Truth be told my mother never asked him for anything because of the situation he was in. However you would THINK if you hit the lotto for 20 grand you would take care of the woman who always took care of you, who always had your back and who always took you back time and time, fuck up after fuck up!
So that night he left for good.
I saw him the next day and he didn't even say anything to me and that was the last I have seen of him.
I had blogged about it here once before.

I guess my brother and sister forgive him for everything.
I myself can not.
I can not forgive the nights of beatings.
I can not forgive the times of betrayals to me, to my mother.
Plain and simple he left that night out of my life forever.

I think it's the rain that makes people crazy.

Today was a good day. Woke up got my drink on, and then Gypsy and I went to have a nice breakfast.
We were thinking on what we wanted to do and she had wanted to go get a pedicure, and her eyebrows done.
So I said cool and we went up to "Da Ave" and before she went to go she stopped into this nice store and got a pair of sandals, and 2 pairs of flip-flops. They look great on her plus I just got her a bag to match her sandals and that always makes the outfit perfect!
So she goes in, they take her right away and she is sitting getting everything done for her. I love to see people pampering her and taking care of her!
While she is in there I head over to this electronics store to look at another Flat Screen HDTV for us. After looking around, pricing and some street quick jive talk I might just have what I'm looking for in my price range.
Finally walk back and Gypsy is done, looking great and ready to go.
We decided on stopping in a Dunkin' Doughnuts for a "Coolatta". I think I'm hooked. The vanilla bean one is my favorite.
So we walk in, Gypsy walks to the counter to order for us and I grab a 2 seat table. I our bags on the chair and then take my umbrella and put it on the side so that it doesn't drip and make the floor slippery. It had rained pretty much since 10:30 AM and now it was 3:00 PM. There was a single woman on the other end and a older lady with a younger friend right next to me getting ready to leave.
So Gypsy gets our drinks and we chill out and bull shit for a few. After about 15 minutes we go to leave.
I picked up the bags and went to get the umbrella and it was GONE! Someone jacked me for my umbrella
After looking for it for a bit we just chalked it up as a loss and then went on out way.As we were waiting for the bus I see the crazy older woman who was next to me in Dunkin and she had my umbrella! Can you believe that?
Then I confronted her on it and she kept saying no that it was hers and if I didn't leave her alone she was going to call the cops.
I told her go right ahead because
1. they have you on tape taking it.
2. MY initials are craved into the wooden handle.
3.You KNOW you took it and you will get a ticket. ( Doubt they would make a 70 something old lady go to jail )
As soon as I said all that her tune changed and then Gypsy just took it right out of her hands.
You had to see this shit though.
I think they people that were there thought it was a stunt or shit because here you have this 70 year old lady trying to walk away from me 28 years old and telling her "Give me my shit back! I'm NOT playing!"
Crazy & funny.
Then she got on the same bus as us!
Now if you KNEW in your heart that was your umbrella wouldn't you fight back for it?
If you KNEW in your heart you didn't take it from someone wouldn't you fight & not give it up?
People are just plain crazy I tell ya!

To all the great fathers out there HAPPY FATHERS DAY!
Everyone enjoy your weekend and stay up!

Free Schapelle Corby!

I watched the HBO documentary called "Ganja Queen". It is about this women Schapelle Corby.
Now I'm going to list a few links. I strongly suggest watching the documentary first, or the videos with the FACTS!
There are alot of different views, opinions, and versions on this story.
It is up to you on what you think really went down.
I would love to know what you think.

Here is a little info into the history.

Schapelle Leigh Corby (born 10 July 1977) is an Australian woman convicted and imprisoned in Indonesia for drug smuggling.

Corby is serving a 20-year sentence (for which she has received approximately five months in remissions) for the importation of 4.2 kg (9.3 lb) of cannabis into Bali, Indonesia. She was convicted and sentenced in Bali on 27 May 2005 by the Denpasar (Indonesia) District Court and currently serves her sentence in Kerobokan Prison, Bali. On appeal, her conviction and sentence were confirmed with finality by the Indonesian Supreme Court. No further legal manoeuvres on her part are possible; she may petition for clemency from Indonesia's president, but would have to admit guilt to do so.^[1][2]

Corby has maintained from the time of her arrest that the drugs were planted in her boogie board bag and that she did not know about them. ^[3] Her trial and conviction were a major focus of attention for the Australian media. Her due release date, with remissions, is currently 12 April 2024. ^[4]

In June 2008, the Nine Network in Australia broadcast a two-part documentary called Schapelle Corby: The Hidden Truth. An edited version of the documentary was renamed Ganja Queen and aired on HBO in North and South America, before being released on DVD. ^[5]

Controversy

The following points have been identified by many^[who?] as flaws in the way Corby and her team presented her case:^{[citation needed]}

• The rejection of an offer of experienced defence barristers: After the verdict the Australian Foreign Minister, Alexander Downer, revealed that the government had offered the free help of two highly skilled Queen's Counsel and that this offer was rejected. However, the family took up the offer for the High Court appeal but after more damaging allegations of bribery by the barristers, further assistance was refused. ^[22]
• The Australian Federal Police alleged that an offer to DNA test the cannabis was refused by Schapelle Corby's legal team.^[23][24]. It was revealed in an ABC interview with Australian Foreign Minister Alexander Downer, that the Indonesian Police rejected the Australian Government's request to have the AFP test the drugs. ^[25]
• Failure to attack the weaknesses of forensic evidence. The bag of cannabis was not weighed or fingerprinted by the Indonesians. Tim Lindsay of the University of Melbourne, an expert on Asian law, suggested that a greater focus on the weaknesses of the forensic evidence could have been helpful. ^[13]
• Use of hearsay evidence: No substantive probative evidence was presented to back up the suggestion that baggage handlers had put the drugs in Corby's bag. Hearsay evidence from John Patrick Ford was a distraction and had no chance of being accepted as having probative value.
• Other agendas: Defence lawyers and other Corby supporters often seemed to be equally interested in their own publicity and celebrity as they were with Corby's interests.
• Trial by media: Seemingly no effort was made to lower the profile of the case in the media. Even minor issues were the subject of headlines. The high profile of the case made it impossible to come to a quiet, negotiated settlement with the Indonesian justice system.
• Persons associated with Corby publicly attacked the Indonesian judges and legal system in the media. (Notably Ron Bakir suggested that bribery was inherent in the system.)

Criticism of the prosecution's case included:

• The bag of cannabis was not fingerprinted by the Indonesian custom officials or police, nor analysed to determine its source of origin.
• No attempt was made to search or weigh Corby's other luggage, even after she demanded it, though again, there was no obligation upon Indonesian police to do so. Her belongings were searched after she was taken into custody.
• CCTV cameras at the Bali airport could corroborate or contradict Corby's account of what happened in customs. The prosecutor said the tapes were not checked. The defence requested to see them. Corby's mother claims that Schapelle requested the CCTV footage be shown in court, to which the judge replied, "We will use that if we need to". Corby's mother claims the footage was never shown.^[26]
• According to the documentary "Ganja Queen", which aired on HBO, the Closed-Circuit TV Cameras (CCTV) within the airport were not operable the day of Corby's flight.
• In an interview, the prosecutor explained how the size of the bag containing the cannabis was similar to the boogie board bag.

Now here are some of the links I have found on her story. They also have ALOT of interesting facts on the case and honestly I just really feel for this women.
I mean even if she did do it, which I feel she DID NOT I don't think a 20 year sentence in Bali is fair at ALL.
I mean you have people who have done far worse and gotten far less time!


Her main website
Link
Link

Again I would love to hear what others think on this matter.
This goes to show you, you never know what can happen. You days of freedom can be taken in a heartbeat.
Don't take what you have for granted, don't have to know what you really had until it is gone...
Stay Up Everyone!

5 years & Counting!

Yesterday Gypsy and I had our 5 year anniversary. I swear it went by so fast! I got her a few things that she wanted such as new frames for her glasses.
I got her 2 pairs. I got her a Kenneth Cole frame and a Gucci frame as well. They both look just like the links I gave. All she has to do is go pick out what tint she wants to put to each of them.
I got her a pair of shoes and one of her favorite perfumes that came with the set.
You know the perfume, body cream, and lotion. It's called Samsara and I love it on her even more then she does I think. Just the smell of her still drives me nuts to this day.
So being we are both working pretty hard this week we agreed to have our own weekend get away and go to dinner. I'm also trying to surprise her with something else but I'm not going to say it here because she might read it and I don't want to ruin the surprise.

Other then that not much really going on.
New tenants are in and so far so good.
My mom is doing much better now that the apartment is rented and she is trying to catch up to all the bills she feel behind on when we didn't have that apartment rented.
I'm trying to stay away from negative people, places, and things.
Lately I have been just going to my program and coming home if I'm not working that day.
I still do talk to a few people who I consider a little closer to me and who I hope don't try to get over on me.
However if they do that's on them and they would only be fucking themselves because I can be your best friend or your worst enemy so the choice is up to them.
Harley got a haircut and he looks GREAT!!!
I swear he looks like a new dog! Were so happy that he is nice and shaved and clean and ready for the summer!
So I think that's it for now. Hope everyone is doing well and enjoying the summer!
I can't wait to go to the pool & the beach and chill out!
Stay Up!

Poison - Random Thoughts...

I didn't even open my eyes and I can feel the chills running down my spine. It feels like a cool spring breeze flowing threw the sleeves of your t-shirt, only these chills carry pain.
I would try to lay there as long as I could take it. I did this because I knew once I woke the day started and I was off to somewhat of a routine.
A routine that consisted of pricking myself with needles, stealing from stores, sometimes people, and most of all exhausting my soul more and more each day.
Some days I wanted to do it and the days I felt like not doing it I didn't have a choice because my body wouldn't let me do normal things unless that poison ran threw my veins.
In order to do simple things such as spend a nice BBQ with friend or family, or both I had to make sure I had plenty of poison in me and for me.
So many times I secretly wished that I would be putting too much and it would kill me.
It killed me all right. It killed me sluggishly, and made my soul wither away prick after prick, and night after night.
I tried to strain the poison from my body time after time, so many I lost count. It seemed that even after the poison was out of my body it was still in my mind. Still there whispering to me lies and promises.
Even after jail, and pain caused to my mother and my friends I still went back.
Today I still fight with that whisper, that poison, those chills.
I do not wish this on my worst enemy.

Beautiful Relapse?

Crazy week.
I went to the dentist yesterday for a cleaning and she took X-rays and she told me she couldn't even clean my teeth because she needed to correct 5 yes FIVE and the cleaning would come after if not later.
So she sat me down, numbed me up, and away she went.
She pulled 3 and took out cavities on 2 of them. She stitched up where she pulled out the 3 they were all in a row. I was in her chair for over 3hours.
Almost 40 hours later it still hurts.
I swore that I will never let anything like this ever happen again and I won't!
I don't want to be 40 years old and have no teeth in my mouth! ( like him ) I will tell you that I had no problems with my teeth until I got onto the program.
Even in all my years of getting high my teeth were fine, pretty much perfect really. Then once I got on the program they started cracking and hurting! So all that bullshit they tell us that it doesn't have any effect on your teeth is total crap!
The new tenants still have not moved in. I think there going to do it this weekend but still not sure. no big deal because there all paid up so I could care less really.
Eminem came out with his 5TH solo album called "RELAPSE".
All the songs are dope but "Beautiful" is the one I'm feeling the most. Here are the words and the song is posted at the bottom.
I got it and rock it on my ipod and even when I'm at my computer and never get tired of him.
He has not came out with a solo album in 5 years and the main reason was because he was addicted to pills and fell bad into his addiction.
His right hand man Proof was shot down and killed and that made him go into a deeper depression.
When this happened he overdosed on methadone pills.
He has talked about it in many articles and interviews.
Just a short one checking and hope all is well with everyone out there!
Stay Up!

Kiss My Dogs Ass!

I'm sorry but I'm pissed off right now.

My friend Judy who has her children in foster care got a visit for today and she brought them to my park for me to see them, play with them, let them see the dogs and so on.
So we were playing and I had Harley, and Myla only.
Now the main reason why I only brought Myla and Harley is because they are the most friendly dogs EVER.
People were coming over to pet them and play with them and everything.
2 park staff members come up to me and tell me that as long as they are on the leash it is OK.
Well after playing in the park for about an hour or so cops come in the park and say that I can't be here with them at ALL and I need to just take a walk.
Well I did take about 10 minute walk and then I came right back.
As soon as I sit down the cops came right back and Joann, Judy's sister told me they were walking over with there ticket pad in hand.
So right away I get up and we leave.
So whatever. The kids were leaving to go to either Joann's house or there own so I walked them to the train.
Once I got home I took Bandit out for his walk.
I walk into the park where the dogs are allowed to be and stay because it is the adult section of the park.
As soon as I step into the park I see a cop and she comes up to me with the only fucking attitude saying "your the reason I have to be here"
So if you know me then you KNOW I have to respond and not let something like this go.
She also said that people were calling and complaining saying the dogs were attacking the young kids.
Mind you as she saying this to me 1 of the staff members was standing there.
So I responded with "did you not tell me that as long as I had them on a leash it was OK. Also that I am allowed to be in this area with the dog as long as it was on a leash, and whoever called and said my dogs were attacking kids are fucking liars!"
She said are you cussing at me
I told her that I have freedom of speech and I can say whatever I like to whoever I like I have not broken any laws, and just say the truth your just mad because you have to actually do your job and stand on your feet!
she made some comment about "running me in"
I shot back with "for what? walking my dog on a leash in a park area where I am allowed? Let me tell you something my father is one of the head lawyers of New York top firms and if you THINK about doing something stupid I will bury you with a lawsuit and have you working in Alaska!!!"
After that she said something like "just make sure he is close to you" I told her her will walk however he wants as long as he is on his leash!!

Yo I got so freaking heated! These people who have only lived here for a year or so think they own the hood.
They think they own the park and once they see a pit bull they grab there kids and go far away.
I mean sometimes it bothers me but if your THAT dumb to think every pit bull is a killer then so be it. However don't call the cops and make up nothing but lies!
Then just because your a cop doesn't mean I have to give you respect. In my book you have to earn it!

Sorry for the rant it just got me soo mad. I was having such a great time with the kids and everything and here comes along the cops and the phone calls spewing nothing but lies and just because there pit bulls they have to be trouble dogs?!?
People need to stop looking at what everyone else is doing and look at there own dam selves!
Stay Up!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY

Just a quick blog to say happy mothers day to all the mothers out there.
If you have a child or dog or cat or some kind of animal either way your a mother!

So I hope everyone will enjoy there day. No stress. No drama. Just good times, and good vibes!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY EVERYONE OUT THERE!!!!

Rought Draft..

As you can see I changed my blog up a bit. Just added a few new pix, alot of aniamsl, some mine and some from my good peeps, also links to some new sites I go to alot.
Also put up some pictures of my peeps that I talk to a regular basis.

If there's a problem with your picture being up there then please let me know right away.

This is just a rough draft as to what I want it took look like and I will probably spend more time on it later on this week.

So honestly what do you think?
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Stamp Out Hunger!!

This is something I have been trying to tell as many people as I can about it.
It seems to me that everyone I have told in person kind of just shrugged it off, but then again I have to remember the type of people I told.

Anyways it is called "Stamp Out Hunger".

It starts May 2ND
It ends May 9Th

All you need to do is get whatever non perishable food you have that you don't want or need and bring it t your local post office.
They will then bring it to the food banks and people in need of food will get it.

So here is the link to the site

If you could link it on your blog or email your friends, or make a collection at your job, anything you can do to help would be great and I think it is for a great cause.

Anyone who knows me, knows I am all about animals, which I am.
However this is something that I think is a really cool thing that could be done to help alot of people.
Today money does not come easy and believe it or not some people need to steal to eat, and I'm talking about people who are working legit jobs and I know this because I have seen it with my own eyes.
So lets get down and do this!
Stay Up!

Early Morning Thoughts...

Well it is 3:45 am and I am still awake. I have been watching some classic movies on Youtube like "Panic In Needle Park". I love that movie.
The first time I ever saw it, was when it was playing in BAM here in Brooklyn.
Gypsy and I went and saw it. It was my first time seeing it, but not for her. It was really cool seeing it on the big screen I must say.

I'm reading blogs, emails, also emailing my homie Shane because he is up as well. Only because theres a like 5 hour time difference so he is up at somewhat a normal hour.
I didn't work this week. My so called "friend" totally flaked on me.
Said that he was only able to use me for 4 hours and pay me 20 bucks. Now if you do that math that's 5/ hour. I'm sorry but I'm not a Mexican. I told him forget it, along with some other choice words.
I wasn't mad at that fact that what he wanted to pay me
I was mad at the fact that he asked ME to work and help HIM and then totally dissed me you know?

Also not to mention I did him a big favor by uploading his art, ( if that's what you want to call it, to me a 2 year old can draw better but whatever ) uploaded it to myspace, and made a slide show for him and posted up bulletins, and went all out on the thing for him.

See lately this is what is turning me off to people.
People seem to take my kindness for weakness and it's making me be a total fucking bitch. It's making me be cold. It's making me not want to even help people.
I try to do a few nice things for people and then you give them a quarter, they want a dollar.
Like I said just turning me away from even wanting to meet anyone, or talk to anyone, or do anything for anyone....

On an brighter note Gypsy and I went out to dinner tonight. We had a good time and just relaxed and enjoyed ourselves.
Something we surely needed.

Well almost 4am and I have to be up soon
Hope all is well with everyone!
Stay Up!

Making Headway!

Alot has been going on that's why I haven't been updating on the regular like I TRY to do.

Guess what people? The apartment is rented!
Thanks to everyone who said a prayer, even if it was a little one, even if it was a good thought!
The papers are signed, checks in the bank and they will be moving in soon.
We were able to re-do the floors, and the terrace as well! The place is looking great, even better then I would have even thought it would come out.
Also before the winter comes we will have put in new windows for them, so its going to look really great!
The view is great, nice skyline view of the city, alot of space, and just all around great place!

My mother is of course less stressed because it is finally rented. However from it not being rented almost 3 months she got behind on alot of bills but you know what, it's rented, and better to have a monthly income then nothing correct?

I have been doing well also. Trying my best to stay out of trouble.
Summer is coming and I just treated Gypsy to a pedicure, and got her about 10 pairs off all different flip-flops, and wedges for her to wear. That's all she likes to wear in the summer.
Once and awhile I will wear a pair but my thing is sneakers of course.

A friend of mine offered me to work with him tomorrow and maybe the rest of the week as well.
He sells books on the street. He knows his shit and knows what is worth money, and knows what he is doing I must give him that.
He sells mostly Art books, and books of that nature.
So I shall be with him working this week. Keeps me off the street and out of trouble.

My computer is up and running and so far so good.
I must admit that I am one smart cookie.
Everything the DELL technician was telling me to do on the phone I had already did. I knew it was the mother board as well as the hard drive.
If I had the parts I would have been able to put them in myself.
Well e have insurance with them so they came over and replaced the parts for free.
The only down side is the new hard drive doesn't have any of my old stuff on it. Like my music, pictures, etc.

So what I need to do is take mt old hard drive and put in another computer, and extract all the files.
I have a good friend in my hood who fixes computers and I'm more then sure he will let me use one of his computers to extract the files. One I extract them onto a portable hard drive I then put them on my new hard drive and everything is exactly the same.

The only thing I a little leery of is that if one of the files on the old hard drive is infected, all I'm going to be doing is taking the infected file and putting it into a brand new hard drive and then it will happen all over again.
So I'm pondering if I'm even going to do it or not.

I can take a computer apart.
I can take all the part for a computer and put it together from scratch.

I'm thinking of either going to school for computers, or maybe taking a course, just doing something.
Everything I know of computer I taught myself. I know everything from trial and error.
There were times where I would sit in front of the computer for 10-15 hours at a time until I got the problem fixed and you bet your sweet ass I got it fixed!

So that's whats been going on in a nutshell.
Apartment rented.
Trying to get some steady work.
Computer working fine.
Animals, family, and partner doing good.

I hope everyone else is doing good as well.

I don't want to make this post longer then what it is so I will blog on "the twins" and the program madness as well maybe later or tomorrow.
Again thanks to everyone who said a little prayer for meeeeeee.....
stay Up!

I'm Baaaaaack!

I'm FINALLY back up and running and better then ever. Only thing is I lost alot of my stuff because like a ass I did not back it up.
So some pix and music and stuff I will probably never get back.
The only way I think I will be able to do it is if I take my old hard drive and extract the file from another computer.

I have a guy around the hood that should let me use his store to do so. I do everything myself so it's no bother to him.

Just wanted everyone to know I'm back and I will be responding to emails, blogs, twitter, myspace, facebook, and all that good shit!

Man I felt like my left arm was missing when I did not have the net I swear! Made me wonder WTF did we do before?
I know I got alot of cleaning done, and also alot of reading.LOL

So I'm back bitches and better then ever!
Will be blogging again soon, and like I said responding to everyone as fast as I can.
Thanks to those who sent me emails and posted here as well!
Love to you all!
Stay Up!

My Computer Is Down

Just a quick post from my phone letting people know my computer is not working at all.
So plz dont think Im ignoring you
email me if you want to holla at me. Sacrcastic I love that idea, email me some pix! Of course when my computer gets work
sdawgz13@yahoo.com

Children Lost

I have blogged on the twin sisters before here and here

I don't know what makes me think of them but I do so I'm going to post whats been going on and however you take it believe me I wont think any less of you after you read what I have to post.

Lets start out with Judy the one with the 3 children. Freddy (20), Joesph (9), Joanna (12).
Now about 2 or so months ago she left the 2 younger ones home alone while her and her husband, Flip went to there program and Freddy went and hustled up money to support his dope habit.
While the kid were home alone ACS made a surprise visit and long story short Joanna answered the door and they saw they were home alone and they were taken from the mother and father.
As of now they are in a foster home in the Bronx with a woman Miss G. who has a house of military structure.
Joesph and Joanna are not the only children living there. She has 6 other foster children living with her as well.
Now Judy & Flip get weekly visits, I think 2 times a week.
On there very first visit they were late, Judy was stoned, and Flip was drunk and reeking of beer and vomiting.
Out of all the visits they have had since they have been taking they have only been on time maybe 2 or 3 times.
Every visit they go they never have money to buy the kids anything they want or NEED.
In there sick minds they think that as long as they give clean urine's there going to get them back.
Not even thinking to do something more to show ACS that you actually WANT them back in your life.
Every visit she has with them I try to send some gifts, you know like a wrestling toy for Joesph, or a doll for Joanna. Sometimes a game for both of them to play, or stickers, just something to show them I'm thinking of them and I do miss seeing them and having them around every now and then.
Freddy just came out of Rikers Island about 12days ago and already has a dope habit, already is robbing cars again, and already is back into lowlife grimy mode.
I saw him & Judy today and they begged me for money so he could get straight. He asked for a dollar promising me 5 tomorrow if I was to give it to him. I gave it but not cause I think I'm going to get 5 in return. I did it because I know what it is like to be dope sick and not have money to get straight. My wife asked why I gave it to him and I said well that was my good karma for the day, that's how I look at it.

Ok now for Joann the other twin.
About 2 months ago she comes up to me and tells me that she is pregnant. I told her your not keeping it right? She responded with "well we don't know yet, Nelson (her boyfriend of 8 years) and I have to talk it over and see what were going to do".
So I tried to put out that obvious facts to her.

-She is HIV+
-She is on Methadone
-She is still sniffing dope
-She is smoking crack a few times a week
-She is not taking her HIV meds (she sells them)
-She is selling drugs
-She is over 40
-She smokes cigarettes

-He is selling drugs
-He is sniffing dope
-He owes parole until 2012

Now with just those FACTS alone should be enough for anyone to have the common sense not to have the child.
She waited, and waited, and kept ping-ponging the idea around in her head of to have it or not to have it.
Finally last week she went and had an abortion.

In my honest opinion I think that was the right thing to do. All the child would know right from birth is pain and that's not fair.

So that's the latest saga on "the twins".
Children in the system. Older son on dope. Joann & man selling drugs.
Everyday it is a "he said she said" between both of them. Just plain non-sense!
That some days I sit there and I'm listening to either one of them or both and I say to myself what the FUCK am I doing..........

If I Was A PitBull

Just want to say sorry I haven't updated lately but I have been trying to keep in touch with everyone by email, texting, yahoo messenger, as well as a quick blog comment post.

Still have alot going on as far as the apartment, it is STILL not rented. I don't know whats the problem and why it is taking so dam long. I mean I know people don't have money right now but the people who come to see this apartment have great jobs and they are financial stable. So again keep me & my mom in your prayers concerning that.

The picture above was made and sent to me from BABZ a good friend that I met online and we hooked up and chilled in Brooklyn a few times!

Update on Mikey:
He has his own page on the Bidawee site.
Here is the link to MIKEY

I worked 2days as a temp in a office for a friend of Gypsys and who knows it might become something more, you never know. If not then no biggie, I will just keep sending out my resumes and see what becomes of it.

Other then that I hope everyone is doing well, and everything is going good.
Also blogger now allows you to post from your phone. I don't know if you can post pictures and links and stuff but I'm sure I will figure it out. So if you come on and see some crazy shit, just pay it no mind, means I'm trying out the mobile posting thingy..

Stay Up!

New Home For Patty

I hate Mondays and I think I'm safe to say that most people do as well.
Had a great weekend. Got to spend some alone time with Gypsy and get away. Went out to a nice diner as well. Really enjoyed it.

Got some good news as well. Patty Cake got a home!! She went home with the person who adopted her over the weekend! Mikey is still there, however he is doing really well. Getting along with the other cats, playing, and just having a good time! That was something that I really needed to hear.

As I said in my last post 2 people were coming to look at the apartment this weekend.
My mother called the Real Estate woman and she did not answer. She called her all day and still no answer.
Right now it is Monday 6:30 PM and STILL no answer. There better be someone in her family dead for this.
I mean come on you just don't do that kind of thing. Be a professional and make a call to your client and let us know whats the deal, and whats going on. If you couldn't make it then so be it, at least give my mother the respect of calling back and letting her know that, right?

Yesterday I finally watched "SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE" and I must say I loved it! I now know why it has won so many awards and everyone is talking about it.
It was a story that was well told, and put together really good! Did anyone else see it? What did you think?
I must say I knew the answer to the last question. Did anyone else. (Please don't give the answer or put spoilers. I don't want to ruin it for the people who haven't seen it.)

This morning I felt like I had no energy. I felt like just staying in bed all dam day, but I didn't. I got up, showered, got dressed and went to my program even though I really did not feel like it.
I saw my friend Lisa, and talked for a bit with her and then I walked home early because I knew I had to do laundry.
Even though I hate doing laundry I don't want anyone else to do mine except for myself or Gypsy. I feel like someone working in a laundry mat is not going to take care of my clothes and laundry more then myself and I also feel like I know I'm getting them cleaned properly when doing it myself.
So I just came back from putting them in the wash. I gave my dogs a quick walk and now I'm going back to put everything in the dryers.