Children Lost

I have blogged on the twin sisters before here and here

I don't know what makes me think of them but I do so I'm going to post whats been going on and however you take it believe me I wont think any less of you after you read what I have to post.

Lets start out with Judy the one with the 3 children. Freddy (20), Joesph (9), Joanna (12).
Now about 2 or so months ago she left the 2 younger ones home alone while her and her husband, Flip went to there program and Freddy went and hustled up money to support his dope habit.
While the kid were home alone ACS made a surprise visit and long story short Joanna answered the door and they saw they were home alone and they were taken from the mother and father.
As of now they are in a foster home in the Bronx with a woman Miss G. who has a house of military structure.
Joesph and Joanna are not the only children living there. She has 6 other foster children living with her as well.
Now Judy & Flip get weekly visits, I think 2 times a week.
On there very first visit they were late, Judy was stoned, and Flip was drunk and reeking of beer and vomiting.
Out of all the visits they have had since they have been taking they have only been on time maybe 2 or 3 times.
Every visit they go they never have money to buy the kids anything they want or NEED.
In there sick minds they think that as long as they give clean urine's there going to get them back.
Not even thinking to do something more to show ACS that you actually WANT them back in your life.
Every visit she has with them I try to send some gifts, you know like a wrestling toy for Joesph, or a doll for Joanna. Sometimes a game for both of them to play, or stickers, just something to show them I'm thinking of them and I do miss seeing them and having them around every now and then.
Freddy just came out of Rikers Island about 12days ago and already has a dope habit, already is robbing cars again, and already is back into lowlife grimy mode.
I saw him & Judy today and they begged me for money so he could get straight. He asked for a dollar promising me 5 tomorrow if I was to give it to him. I gave it but not cause I think I'm going to get 5 in return. I did it because I know what it is like to be dope sick and not have money to get straight. My wife asked why I gave it to him and I said well that was my good karma for the day, that's how I look at it.

Ok now for Joann the other twin.
About 2 months ago she comes up to me and tells me that she is pregnant. I told her your not keeping it right? She responded with "well we don't know yet, Nelson (her boyfriend of 8 years) and I have to talk it over and see what were going to do".
So I tried to put out that obvious facts to her.

-She is HIV+
-She is on Methadone
-She is still sniffing dope
-She is smoking crack a few times a week
-She is not taking her HIV meds (she sells them)
-She is selling drugs
-She is over 40
-She smokes cigarettes

-He is selling drugs
-He is sniffing dope
-He owes parole until 2012

Now with just those FACTS alone should be enough for anyone to have the common sense not to have the child.
She waited, and waited, and kept ping-ponging the idea around in her head of to have it or not to have it.
Finally last week she went and had an abortion.

In my honest opinion I think that was the right thing to do. All the child would know right from birth is pain and that's not fair.

So that's the latest saga on "the twins".
Children in the system. Older son on dope. Joann & man selling drugs.
Everyday it is a "he said she said" between both of them. Just plain non-sense!
That some days I sit there and I'm listening to either one of them or both and I say to myself what the FUCK am I doing..........