No Comparison

I feel like it has been forever since I last posted but it has only been a little over 2 weeks if I am correct.
What to say?
Hmmmm....
Well I'm still trying to maintain my life.
Things aren't going so well with my brother and sister. As of now I am fighting with them mainly because of the way they treat my mother.
The way I see it is they treat her like a bank card, they only come around or call when they want or need something.
My sister who lives upstate New York has not been to Brooklyn to visit my mother in about 10years!
When my mother was diagnosed with diabetes and was in the hospital for a week, also on Mothers Day mind you she did not come to visit, not a ONCE!
My brother lives in NJ and comes to NY every night because he works for NYC transit. Again he only comes around my mother when he wants something or needs something.
I have not spoken to my brother since he acted like a total DICK and didn't even call my mother on her birthday. I blogged about it here.
I have tried to make a relationship with my sister and it is painfully obvious that she has made her own life and doesn't give a fuck what goes on down here and probably the next time I will see her will be at one of my family members funeral, unless it's my father then she won't see me there.
I'm sure that when my mother passes she will be waiting for her "cut" of what she THINKS shes going to get.
I told my mother that when she dies my family is dead and I truly mean that.
My mom and my wife are the only family I feel I have, and of course my fur babies!
It just sucks because it shows me how they really don't give a fuck about my mom, its like there sitting around waiting for her to die and it makes me fucking SICK!
I know I wasn't the best daughter. I know I did things that hurt my mother. I know I made my mother worry many days and nights when I was out drugging.
I can't make up for the past and I thank God that my mother doesn't hold it against me or try to hurt me with it like other family members have done and still do.
The relationship I have with my mother now is so cool and I am truly grateful for it. I just wish that my brother and sister could see how badly there hurting my mother.
I'm sure when shes gone there going to regret it but then it will be too late.
Maybe they think the same way about me and my relationship with my father but you know what, my father was and still is a loser, gambler, alcoholic, scumbag. My mother did everything she could to make us happy. I think she did a dam fine job with the cards she had!
So if they want to compare, in my mind there is no comparison!
Anyways this is a big enough rant.
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