Here I am only 15 yrs old and on Rikers Island. I'm not going to front at first
I was scared but you cant show anyone any type of fear or else they feed off of that and use it against you. They will make you do things you never
even thought of and make you there bitch and slave.
I was housed in something like a dorm room, only there are no doors
and everything is in the open.
So I had already been assigned my bed and locker and everything and was trying to just
chill out and go over in my head how the fuck I got there to begin with. In a place like Rikers
you never get a moments piece so trying to clear ones head is like trying to light a fire with wet matches.
My first couple of days were going fine. I started getting the swing of things, and how
things were done. It amazed me how quickly people could adapt to such surroundings. It also amazed me how people would let other people
run them because
they were so scared to either fight or stand up for themselves.
Anyway after lunch I had came back to the dorm to just chill out, maybe read, or maybe
if I was lucky catch some sleep. As soon as I laid my head on my pillow I saw 2 black girls
coming up to my bunk. I sat up quickly, and when I realized they were coming to me I stood up.
I remember saying in my head try to stay as close to the wall as possible that way no one
can get you from behind. The bigger of the 2 came up to me saying that she ran this house and I had to pay her rent if I wanted to stay there without any trouble. So I responded with "oh really no one told me that". She came back with "well I'm telling you now, and if you don't give me everything you got I'm going to take it from you".
I put my head down and my hands up saying " Look I don't want any trouble". As soon as the word "trouble" was finished I just started hitting her as hard and as fast as I could. I caught her wayyy off guard because she thought I was scared, and that quote "I didn't want any trouble".
So we fought, I fucked her up, and the other girl that was standing with her didn't say or do a dam thing. After it happened I went into the bathroom to clean up, I had gotten some blood on my hands and on the shirt I was wearing.
A few minutes later a CO came in to see what the noise was about, they went up to the black girl I just fought and asked her how it happened and who did it to her. She said that her and a friend were just playing and it was all in good fun. The CO was happy to hear it because they didn't want to have to take her to the medic, and they didn't want to write up the report. Just more work for them. Of course they knew it was bullshit but they could care less.
From then on no one messed with me, no one tried fucking with me and I tried to stay by myself really. I had a few girls that I would talk to and hang with here and there but most of the time I tried to just stay away from all that.
That was my one and only encounter while at Rikers.
4 comments:
That's how ya gotta roll. Seriously, it's no game and they think it is. They take pleasure in making you flinch, cry, bend and break. Ya can never let 'em ever see you're weak. I swear, I made 'em think I was just plain crazy. They left me alone. It was all good in my hood.
How are you and the wife? Hope you're both well. Miss ya!
Oh I could be scared shit and I NEVER show them. Once you show them your scared they take you for everything and anything.
Oh it always all good in my hood!
Wow. I don't think I would've had the courage to do something like that at 15 years old. I probably would've been too scared to move or say anything- I can't believe you had the guts and the quick thinking to do something like that when you must've been scared and alone and homesick, etc...
I guess jails are completely different wherever you go; it amazes me that the COs just didn't give a shit about what went on and could care less if anyone got into a fight.
But it's really good that you showed that dumb bitch what was up and that you didn't let her take advantage of you like she was planning on. And it's funny that her little sidekick just stood there and watched her get fucked up, haha.
It's true, I saw it with my own eyes and it's fucked up and still makes me mad. It's even worse in the men's prisons, ya know. I would not want to be a man going in. You gotta fight your way to the top. Never take gifts, either, oh hell no, then you're beholden/bitch.
Jail and Prison surely suck and I feel bad for anybody who's had to go. I figured out, I've done, total more than 5 1/2 years and 7 years Parole. It's fucking sickening. I'm trying to behave though. It ain't easy not bein' sleazy, hahaha!!
I miss you guys, I really do.
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