I Have Faith!

I honestly don't know where to begin. First off let me say sorry for not posting on the regular
here but all my close online peeps know whats been going on and I have been having mad
stress in my life.
Yes this is a great outlet for me to let it go and put my frustration outside of my mind of only for
a quick minute. However I feel somethings I shouldn't be putting out there for all and anyone to read.
Anyways I'm going to give everyone a lil bit about whats going on in my life.
Today I had court in Brooklyn and I honestly do not think its going good at all. I am out on 2
bails, for 2 different cases.
This case that I went for today it seems like the DA wants to take it to trial and theres no offer
as of yet. Now I know that if this goes to trial I have a strong possibility of doing some kind of
time. Not time in the sense I will have grey hairs when I come out but to me 1 day behind bars to too many!
Those that have been will feel me on that one!
I feel helpless for some reason even tho I know I can fight it and have my side of the story and I honestly feel like I'm not in the wrong, but that's a whole other topic.
I'm looking for some legit work and it seems like every door I think is going to open doesnt and it shuts on me.
However I'm not giving up and I'm keep on trucking!
I mean fuck, I'm going to be 28 this August. August 13Th for those that want to get me a gift (LOL).
I don't want to be running the streets and have my family and wife worrying about me if I'm coming home or not, if I'm getting into some kind of beef, or if some crackhead is going to try
to rob my fucking earnings. Yes I have sold drugs since I was young and if I wanted I could go
to one of my old connects and get something to sell right fucking now but like I said I just don't
fucking want that anymore. I want a "normal" life with my wife and our babies. Right now it
seems like something keeps getting in my way and the walls are getting higher and higher.
Other then all this shit that's going on Gypsy and I are thinking about taking in another dog and trying to save another one. Bandit is a dominant male and we cannot have another male in the house without some kind of static but we have been pretty lucky and I have faith that
whichever dog we take in next we will be able to work it out.
To all my real peeps I'm here and you know how to get at me so get at me whenever you can!
Stay Up!!

Content (Update)

This is a update on the blog I posted not too long ago titled "Bound To Happen".
The mother of the child, Judy, was sentenced to Rikers Island for 20 days and already has completed her time. Her daughter that was with her was taken from her and kept in custody
until her father came and gave a clean urine to them and showed he wasn't using drugs. Now
was it his urine that he gave I highly doubt that because he uses everything from beer to pills to crack. Either way he gave a clean urine and got the little girl back. She spent I believe 2 nights in there custody.
Since then I have seen Judy and it seems like nothing has changed with her. You think having
your child taken from you and sent to some strange facility would be enough for her to want to straighten her life out.
This past week we had to give Mazzy up for adoption. We found her a great family with a great home in Long Island and shes going to live a great life till the end of her days. When I had to give her up I felt as if I was giving up one of my children and it killed me to do so even though I knew she was going to a great home with a family that's going to give her the world.
Now you would think a mother who gave birth to this child would feel the same way and want to change things in her life so that something like that would never happen again but I guess not.
I saw her just yesterday and there she was dragging the little girl everywhere in the hood
trying to sell the few things she had stolen from the stores.
Seems to me like nothing has changed in her life and she either doesnt give a fuck about her
kids or shes just so used to living the life she has lived for over 30years that shes content with
how her life is going

"Hope"

I was going into The south side of Williamsburg to go and cop something. I already called my connect to make sure that he was there and that I didn't make the trip to wait or for nothing.
After I got out of the train and walked a few blocks I noticed in one of the alleyways there was a stray cat. I saw her and she looked just like one of my cats, Nila.
She was all tan with a all black tail and she had blue eyes. I said to myself after I cop
I will get some food and put it out for her. I looked down and saw 2 other plates so someone was feeding her as well. Then I rethought and said let me feed her now being shes here. So
I ran to the corner store and got some food for her, and ran back and put it down fro her. I started calling her "Hope" because that's the name of the street I found her on.
When I put the food down I backed away and saw she started eating it. I left her there with the food and said if she comes to me on the way back then maybe I can save her.
So I proceeded to go see my connect. Now as I'm going to cop off him I'm not the only one there was 3 other people who came in behind me.
So I go in, he served me first, I stashed it away and then left. I was in the building for about 3minutes.
So I started walking back the same way I came to go and check out Hope. I get to the alleyway where I saw her and being it was nighttime I couldn't see to well. So I took out my flashlight and
started looking for her and calling out to her. The next thing I hear in a mans voice is
"what are you doing", now I thought it was either the super or the landlord maybe even
a tenant in the building. I picked my head up and the it was a white man holding a gold shield.
He was with a Spanish man and they were both under covers.
I explained to him that I do animal rescue & I'm trying to save this cat for the past week.
I showed him all the empty dishes that were on the ground and said I had put them all there
and I was taking care of her.
He asked me if I had anything on me that I'm not supposed to have, I replied with
"the only thing you will find on me is pepper spray and a pocket knife. "Why do you carry the pepper spray" he asked.
I explained to him that I go into areas where they fight pit bulls and I'm also a female
who rides the trains late at night and I will not become a victim.
He asked if I had ID, I said yes and I went toward my wallet to give them my wallet.
They got a little excited and said please don't make any moves like that. After he said
that to me I stood with my hands up and they asked to check me and my pocket and shit.
I said yes go right ahead you find anything on me.
He asked me where I was coming from and I told him that I used to live in this area
and I know alot of people here. I said that someone came up to me and told me that there
was a dog tied up to a radiator and his bones were stinking out and I went into the building that they pointed out to me and I went to check it out.
He asked why didn't I call the Animal Control first. I told them that if they take him he
will get put got or put on the euth list, and I have the authority to take them in and foster
them out to people in order to save them from being put down.
The under covers said the building you were in is a known drug spot and that's why I was being stopped. I said to them "I don't deny that I did go in the building but I wanted to check and
see if there was a dog in there and if he was alive or dead or what".
One of the cops said "OH we KNOW you went into the building but we wanted to make sure you weren't doing anything you should be".
After that the white cop then asked if he could check around my waistline, I said no problem
he felt around my waist and felt my cellphone holder and where I hang my flashlight. He asked what it was and I told him, he said do you mind if I lift your shirt because it feels like a gun.
I said no problem the only thing your going to see is my sexy tummy. They laughed and then
saw it was nothing. After that they gave me back all my stuff that they had taken out of my pockets and said sorry for stopping you.
I said no problem I know your just doing your job its all good.
Now a few things that I think saved me were that I knew the lingo as far as rescuing animals and I also had my ACC volunteer card on me which they saw.
I was dressed fly (as always). I had on brand new all white uptowns, I had on all my jewelry, my gold chain and crucifix, my gold earrings, and my fathers pinkie ring which is worth alot,
at least I got something from the fucker right?! I had my iPod Touch on me and I also had on a $300 Harley Davidson leather vest.
So they saw I wasn't a bummed out "junkie" like that. Also one of the biggest things that I think saved me was the cat Hope and  the food I put down for her and the other plates that were there.
So I dodged a bullet big time.

Bound To Happen

A so called homegirl of mine from the program got popped for shoplifting. Her name is Judy and she has a twin sister Joann and
there known for boosting, been doing it for YEARS! Now when she got caught this past Saturday she had her daughter with her. The little girl is no more than 11 years old and already she knows how to boost.
The mother (if you want to call her that) shows her what to take from the stores, how to
take, to be a lookout and that its only ok when you do it with me because were stealing to get money to eat for the family is what she tells the daughter.
She also has a son who is about 5 or 6 years old she also takes him into the stores with her
to steal.
Her husband also drags the kids around stealing in the stores and God forbid they take
something without the parents telling them then they will get in trouble because they
weren't told to take it for the family to eat.
Meanwhile its not for the family to eat its for the mother and father to smoke crack,
shoot dope, do pills and drink beer.
The mother already has a ACS case pending, and they arrested her this time they took the daughter from her.
Now in my opinion I mean I know the mother and father are not the best thing going for her but that's all she knows. God forbid she gets put into a home where the people abuse her sexually or physically or even mentally?! Then what? What kind of chance does this little girl have? What kind of chance does the son have? Everyday they see things that little kids should not be seeing. Everyday in the summer when they don't have school they drag them everywhere till all hours of the night. They don't go to school everyday and of course there happy with that cause no kid really wants to go to school.
Last summer the kids would see me everyday and every time he would see me I would either have my iPod or my PSP so of course they wanted to use it. They don't have anything like that and if they do get it,
 it gets sold not too much longer.
So I would let them use it and share it, 2 songs for him and then 2songs for you I would say.
The mother has a older son about 20 and hes already a known thief, and dope fiend.
So again that's just another example of what kind of chances do these kids have? I feel bad for Judy for getting locked up and loosing her little girl but I mean how long can you do
something and not expect to get caught out there? Whats it going to take for you to understand that you already have a case going, your worker is on your ass and then your going to
take the kids out with you while you go boosting and copping drugs?
If you pray or have a higher power please say a prayer that the little girl is ok and that no harm comes to her.

Renting Space

Here we are at the start of another week. I have seen the bitches pretty much everyday since what happened and its like I'm the topic of everyones conversation.
Today Gypsy and I were coming out of McDonald's after having lunch there and the lil
crew was standing outside. The only reason they didn't come inside was because they only spend there money on pills and crack. They never spend there money on anything for themselves such as new boots or a new coat, or whatever just something new you know what I mean. They
would rather spend it on crack and pills. So anyway we came out and the first words I hear were this bitch saying something like "Well I fought her cause she fucked with my friend". So after hearing that I laughed out loud a lil bit and turned to Gypsy and said "Baby I love the fact that
I'm the talk of the town, they wake up with me on there minds and they go to sleep with me on there minds as well".
As soon as I said that they all stopped talking and one bitch who is going around telling people
shes going stab me shot me a dirty look and I returned it right back.
Gypsy and I lit our cigs and proceeded to walk to the bus stop down the block. Its obvious that they have nothing going on in there lives to be talking about shit that happened over a week ago. Most of them either live at home with there parents, and mind you all of them are above the
age of 40, or they live in a shelter or there homeless. One of them is a known crackhead hooker. She sells herself for crack and low amounts of money.
She confronted me last week I think and wanted me to fight her, I told her I have shit to l
ose, she said to me "oh please what you got to lose" I said to her "a family, a apartment, my animals, and people to care about me to name a few things. You know shit you don't have"
She didn't know how to respond to that one.
Its just this crazy shit that's going on right now at my program, and it seems the gossip has
made it to the 2 other programs in the area. Do I rent that much space in your head that you keep talking about me?
Like I said in another post I have shit to lose and I value my freedom. I like being able to come home and do whatever I please. not having to watch my back while in the shower. Now
having to worry while I'm eating is someone going threw my shit trying to steal it.
So let them talk all the shit they want about me, right now I just bite my tongue and keep it moving.

Easter Sunday Gypsy and I went to an Animal Shelter in Williamsburg Brooklyn. All we
did was help out walking the dogs. We were there for a few hours and then afterwards we went
out to an early dinner. We came home and stayed together for the rest of the Sunday
mostly in bed with our lil monsters.
I hope everyone else has a good Easter and a great weekend. Till next time.......

Karma Doesnt Sleep!

Being able to come home and jump into your own bed, being able to pick up the phone
and call who you want, being able to smoke, being able to go outside and get fresh air. These are just some of the simple things that you might take advantage of everyday. When your locked up you cant do these things when you want or some of them at all.
Your life can change in a second. Something you do that only takes a few seconds can
change your life FOREVER. This is something that makes me think long and hard now before acting without thinking.
Before I would react without blinking an eye. If you got in my face I wouldn't even think twice about smashing your face in or even trying to really hurt you. Now when someone gets into my face I try my best to just walk away. I have things I can lose. I have a family that cares about me, I have animals that need me to take care of them, and I have people in my life that love and care for me. Oh course if someone comes at me I'm going to defend myself but I act nothing like what I used to before I got a taste of having my freedom taken away from me.
Bottom line think before you act. Think if its REALLY worth having your freedom taken
away from you. When you belong to the state your nothing but a number, you have no fucking rights, don't believe all that bullshit, they treat you like shit and that's the ones that are
there to "protect you". That's not even mentioning the other prisoners that will test you every chance they get.
You might be going in for something simple and because someone tested you or tried to take something from you, your now going to spend years of your life in a fucking rat hole.
So stay up, stay calm and think before you act. Remember what goes around comes around and Karma doesn't sleep!

Bedrest

Wow its been awhile since I last posted something on here. Lets see since the last time I posted something on here what has happened? Not much.
Mazie is still with us and she will be here for some time because she has to go for her other half
of her surgery and then she will come back with us and get all healed up. Then she will be ready to adopt out to a forever home.
Shes getting along just fine with Bandit and Harley. She still wants to chase the cats but not as much as when she first came. 
Gypsy and I are doing really good. Closer then we have ever been in my opinion.
This past Saturday I came down with a case of the flu. I felt as if my head was going to pop off! Gypsy took care good care of me. She would make me tea, and a little something to eat just to fill my stomach. I didn't really have the energy to get out of bed so she got up and walked the dogs
for me as well.
Yesterday we didn't go to the program and just stayed home. We watched SAW IV the unedited version, it was sooo gory! We loved it!
When I woke up this morning I felt alot better and we went to the program together. Gypsy had work at 3pm so we just kind of hung out by the pg until it was time for her to go to work.
She went to work I went home to the little monsters and that's about it.
Of course there's a few other things that went down that I'm not going to put on blast here. My close online friends know whats up and what went down and I just don't think its necessary to post about them. 
Other than that I hope everyone is doing well and feel free to hit me up however it is that you get at me.

Mazie

Gypsy and I took in another doggy not so long ago. The person dumped her in the shelter saying some crap about how the dog would piss and shit all over the house, and that the dog also
went to bite her.
Now this is the REAL deal about the dog. Her name is Mazie, she is about 5-6years old, and shes a Dalmation. The person who had her never got her spayed and therefore the dog got ovarian cancer. She went under major surgery in the shelter and after that was pulled and given to us to nurse her back to health.
When she first came I thought she was a dog who wasn't house trained and didn't know
any better. So every 2 or 3 hours I would take her outside and keep rewarding her when she would go outside.
As time went on I keep trying to make her hold out a lil longer and longer. I
would take her out for the night at around 1 or 2 am at about 8am she would
come by me or Gypsy and
moan and go to the window or door to let us know she
needed to go out.
She never once has had a accident while here. She has never once gone to bite me or
Gypsy. Shes getting along great with Bandit and Harley, although Harley is trying to
hump her every chance her gets.
She went and had her stitches taken out and still loves to play with Bandit all day
and night long if they could.
Shes really a cool ass dog and I wish we could keep her, but keeping her means we
wouldnt have an open spot to help save any other dogs.
This is another pic of her here and here Mazie and Bandit

HAPPY V-DAY xoXOxo

Yes Valentines day people. Do you go out and buy the candy hearts and the Chocolate goodies for your loved ones? Did you? Do you still?
I always say that why try to make a big deal out of who you love for one day out of the whole year? Why on Valentines day do you try to go all out?
I try to look at my relationship like I'm still trying to get into her pants. That way it keeps me thinking of new things to make her happy and ways to keep our relationship going strong.
I'm not going to say what I did for my baby tonight because somethings I do like to keep private
but if you want to let me know what you did then please do so and spill the beans.


HAPPY  VENEREAL DISEASE DAY TO ALL!
REMEMBER TO ALWAYS PLAY SAFE! 

Giant Win!

Thats right the New York Giants won Superbowl 42. Last night was the "big game" and
they went in there and did the dam thing! I love The Giants since I was a lil kid. I always loved them and the Miami Dolphins so some reason. The last time The Giants won the Superbowl was 1991 if I'm not mistaken, so this is a big deal for them and all New Yorkers!
Tomorrow New York is going to throw them a parade and they will get some more shine time.

Who watched the game? I watched it and loved it. The last 8min was the best of the whole
game I think. The Giants were the first to score with a field goal. Then soon after Patriots came and got
 a touchdown. The score stayed 3-7 until the forth quarter The Giants came and got a touchdown to put giants in the lead with 10-7. Then soon after that Patriots came back with a hard drive and won a touchdown, making the score 10-14 and only leaving about 2:30seconds
on the clock. It was 3rd down and Eil Manning escaped a sack and threw a line drive pass down the field and it was caught!
Then with about .40seconds on the clock Manning throws a touchdown pass to #17 Plaxico and puts the Giants ahead with 17-14!
The Patriots only had time for a few plays and then the game was over and the Giants WON!!
I was so happy, I was screaming and yelling along with Gypsy and
even Harley joined in on the fun!