Great Weekend!

Just a quick post to say whats going on in my life.
Had a GREAT 4TH of July Weekend. Went to a big cookout at one of Gypsy's friends house. Had all kinds of good food to eat. Beer & Liquor to who likes to drink. There were a few people in recovery but they didn't mind that the drinking was going on.
Anyways after the cookout we headed to the roof to watch the fireworks. Now if you never lived in Brooklyn and seen the fireworks on a rooftop you are missing something great!
It was great, brought me back to when I was a kid.
When I was younger my father used to go to China Town and buy at least 500-1000 bucks worth of fireworks for our block.
We used to have a block party, everyone would cook and then once the sun went down we set up shop!
People from all over used to come just to watch my fathers firework show! He did it for at least 10 years. My father was getting worse and worse in his addictions that it just died out like he did.
Anyways after the rooftop firework show we went back down for ice cream soda floats and just good conversation!
Gypsy and I didn't get home till about 4am!
We slept late on Sunday, got some cleaning done and then cooked a nice meal for ourselves as we watched a few movies.
White Oleander was one of them, anyone see it? It was a great movie to me!

Other then all of that I felt like Monday came too fast.
To all my peeps that give a fuck about me, thanks alot it really means alot to me!
I'm going to try to keep up with this blog more. Only sometimes when I go to blog it doesn't come out right or at all.
Does that ever happen to anyone else that blogs?
Hope all is well!
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My Mother Is My Father

Today is fathers day and I haven't spoken to my father in about 10 years. He still talks to my older sister, and brother.
See they for some reason still choose to keep in touch with him. I think they feel sorry for him more then anything.
My father was an alcoholic, and is still a very bad gambler. So every so often he calls needing money for this and that and I can't say if they give it to him or not because as soon as the topic of him comes up I shut it right down.
I let them know I don't want to know anything about him and frankly I could care less what's going on in his life.
He is a liar, a cheat, and did my mother dirty for many years.
He used to make lots of money being a bookie. He had one of the biggest illegal street number business going in Brooklyn at one point so money was not a problem.
One thing I can't front on is that he bought us everything we ever needed or wanted.
However that did not make up for the many nights wouldn't come home at a time. The times he would come home piss drunk and take it out on one of us.
the times he would come home from losing money and take it out on one or all of us.
As time went on he started gambling more and more and losing money more and more.
So many times he couldn't even give my mother money to pay bills & my mother would come up with the money to make sure we had what we needed, sometimes not what we wanted. What we wanted was not an option sometimes.
My father just got worse and worse and time after time my mother would kick him out and then because my sister & brother wanted him back she would take him back.
He would give the same promises, and lies and never keep his word and this kept going on for years.

I was drugging hard however still living at home.
He had lost his bookie business. Had no money, no friends, and I nor my mother even spoke to him and he was living under the same roof.
My father was living there only because my mother felt sorry for him because he had nowhere to go.
My father always plays the lotto, every chance he gets he plays. Like most people he sticks with the same numbers everyday.
So one night the lotto came out and his numbers were the hit.
My mother confronted him and he said that he didn't play because he wasn't able to get them in on time.

Make a long story short.
He did win.
He won over 20 grand.
He had my brothers wife cash the ticket so he would avoid paying overdue taxes.
He gave my brother and sister 5 grand each.
My mother confronted my brother and his wife and the flat out lied to her face.
My mother confronted my father and he flat out lied to her face.
Finally a week later my mother tricked my brothers wife and made her spill the beans.
So that night was the only blow out.
My mother told my father to leave and never come back.
He said "I will leave at the end of the month". Like the nigga was paying rent or something.
My mothers response was "No you will leave NOW, not tomorrow, but right NOW".
He tried to say that he was going to give my mother money, and that he was also going to give me money even though he knew it was going on drugs but that because she was doing this she blew it for her and myself.
He wasn't going to give us SHIT. He was trying to hide it so that he didn't have to give us anything.
Truth be told my mother never asked him for anything because of the situation he was in. However you would THINK if you hit the lotto for 20 grand you would take care of the woman who always took care of you, who always had your back and who always took you back time and time, fuck up after fuck up!
So that night he left for good.
I saw him the next day and he didn't even say anything to me and that was the last I have seen of him.
I had blogged about it here once before.

I guess my brother and sister forgive him for everything.
I myself can not.
I can not forgive the nights of beatings.
I can not forgive the times of betrayals to me, to my mother.
Plain and simple he left that night out of my life forever.

I think it's the rain that makes people crazy.

Today was a good day. Woke up got my drink on, and then Gypsy and I went to have a nice breakfast.
We were thinking on what we wanted to do and she had wanted to go get a pedicure, and her eyebrows done.
So I said cool and we went up to "Da Ave" and before she went to go she stopped into this nice store and got a pair of sandals, and 2 pairs of flip-flops. They look great on her plus I just got her a bag to match her sandals and that always makes the outfit perfect!
So she goes in, they take her right away and she is sitting getting everything done for her. I love to see people pampering her and taking care of her!
While she is in there I head over to this electronics store to look at another Flat Screen HDTV for us. After looking around, pricing and some street quick jive talk I might just have what I'm looking for in my price range.
Finally walk back and Gypsy is done, looking great and ready to go.
We decided on stopping in a Dunkin' Doughnuts for a "Coolatta". I think I'm hooked. The vanilla bean one is my favorite.
So we walk in, Gypsy walks to the counter to order for us and I grab a 2 seat table. I our bags on the chair and then take my umbrella and put it on the side so that it doesn't drip and make the floor slippery. It had rained pretty much since 10:30 AM and now it was 3:00 PM. There was a single woman on the other end and a older lady with a younger friend right next to me getting ready to leave.
So Gypsy gets our drinks and we chill out and bull shit for a few. After about 15 minutes we go to leave.
I picked up the bags and went to get the umbrella and it was GONE! Someone jacked me for my umbrella
After looking for it for a bit we just chalked it up as a loss and then went on out way.As we were waiting for the bus I see the crazy older woman who was next to me in Dunkin and she had my umbrella! Can you believe that?
Then I confronted her on it and she kept saying no that it was hers and if I didn't leave her alone she was going to call the cops.
I told her go right ahead because
1. they have you on tape taking it.
2. MY initials are craved into the wooden handle.
3.You KNOW you took it and you will get a ticket. ( Doubt they would make a 70 something old lady go to jail )
As soon as I said all that her tune changed and then Gypsy just took it right out of her hands.
You had to see this shit though.
I think they people that were there thought it was a stunt or shit because here you have this 70 year old lady trying to walk away from me 28 years old and telling her "Give me my shit back! I'm NOT playing!"
Crazy & funny.
Then she got on the same bus as us!
Now if you KNEW in your heart that was your umbrella wouldn't you fight back for it?
If you KNEW in your heart you didn't take it from someone wouldn't you fight & not give it up?
People are just plain crazy I tell ya!

To all the great fathers out there HAPPY FATHERS DAY!
Everyone enjoy your weekend and stay up!

Free Schapelle Corby!

I watched the HBO documentary called "Ganja Queen". It is about this women Schapelle Corby.
Now I'm going to list a few links. I strongly suggest watching the documentary first, or the videos with the FACTS!
There are alot of different views, opinions, and versions on this story.
It is up to you on what you think really went down.
I would love to know what you think.

Here is a little info into the history.

Schapelle Leigh Corby (born 10 July 1977) is an Australian woman convicted and imprisoned in Indonesia for drug smuggling.

Corby is serving a 20-year sentence (for which she has received approximately five months in remissions) for the importation of 4.2 kg (9.3 lb) of cannabis into Bali, Indonesia. She was convicted and sentenced in Bali on 27 May 2005 by the Denpasar (Indonesia) District Court and currently serves her sentence in Kerobokan Prison, Bali. On appeal, her conviction and sentence were confirmed with finality by the Indonesian Supreme Court. No further legal manoeuvres on her part are possible; she may petition for clemency from Indonesia's president, but would have to admit guilt to do so.^[1][2]

Corby has maintained from the time of her arrest that the drugs were planted in her boogie board bag and that she did not know about them. ^[3] Her trial and conviction were a major focus of attention for the Australian media. Her due release date, with remissions, is currently 12 April 2024. ^[4]

In June 2008, the Nine Network in Australia broadcast a two-part documentary called Schapelle Corby: The Hidden Truth. An edited version of the documentary was renamed Ganja Queen and aired on HBO in North and South America, before being released on DVD. ^[5]

Controversy

The following points have been identified by many^[who?] as flaws in the way Corby and her team presented her case:^{[citation needed]}

• The rejection of an offer of experienced defence barristers: After the verdict the Australian Foreign Minister, Alexander Downer, revealed that the government had offered the free help of two highly skilled Queen's Counsel and that this offer was rejected. However, the family took up the offer for the High Court appeal but after more damaging allegations of bribery by the barristers, further assistance was refused. ^[22]
• The Australian Federal Police alleged that an offer to DNA test the cannabis was refused by Schapelle Corby's legal team.^[23][24]. It was revealed in an ABC interview with Australian Foreign Minister Alexander Downer, that the Indonesian Police rejected the Australian Government's request to have the AFP test the drugs. ^[25]
• Failure to attack the weaknesses of forensic evidence. The bag of cannabis was not weighed or fingerprinted by the Indonesians. Tim Lindsay of the University of Melbourne, an expert on Asian law, suggested that a greater focus on the weaknesses of the forensic evidence could have been helpful. ^[13]
• Use of hearsay evidence: No substantive probative evidence was presented to back up the suggestion that baggage handlers had put the drugs in Corby's bag. Hearsay evidence from John Patrick Ford was a distraction and had no chance of being accepted as having probative value.
• Other agendas: Defence lawyers and other Corby supporters often seemed to be equally interested in their own publicity and celebrity as they were with Corby's interests.
• Trial by media: Seemingly no effort was made to lower the profile of the case in the media. Even minor issues were the subject of headlines. The high profile of the case made it impossible to come to a quiet, negotiated settlement with the Indonesian justice system.
• Persons associated with Corby publicly attacked the Indonesian judges and legal system in the media. (Notably Ron Bakir suggested that bribery was inherent in the system.)

Criticism of the prosecution's case included:

• The bag of cannabis was not fingerprinted by the Indonesian custom officials or police, nor analysed to determine its source of origin.
• No attempt was made to search or weigh Corby's other luggage, even after she demanded it, though again, there was no obligation upon Indonesian police to do so. Her belongings were searched after she was taken into custody.
• CCTV cameras at the Bali airport could corroborate or contradict Corby's account of what happened in customs. The prosecutor said the tapes were not checked. The defence requested to see them. Corby's mother claims that Schapelle requested the CCTV footage be shown in court, to which the judge replied, "We will use that if we need to". Corby's mother claims the footage was never shown.^[26]
• According to the documentary "Ganja Queen", which aired on HBO, the Closed-Circuit TV Cameras (CCTV) within the airport were not operable the day of Corby's flight.
• In an interview, the prosecutor explained how the size of the bag containing the cannabis was similar to the boogie board bag.

Now here are some of the links I have found on her story. They also have ALOT of interesting facts on the case and honestly I just really feel for this women.
I mean even if she did do it, which I feel she DID NOT I don't think a 20 year sentence in Bali is fair at ALL.
I mean you have people who have done far worse and gotten far less time!


Her main website
Link
Link

Again I would love to hear what others think on this matter.
This goes to show you, you never know what can happen. You days of freedom can be taken in a heartbeat.
Don't take what you have for granted, don't have to know what you really had until it is gone...
Stay Up Everyone!

5 years & Counting!

Yesterday Gypsy and I had our 5 year anniversary. I swear it went by so fast! I got her a few things that she wanted such as new frames for her glasses.
I got her 2 pairs. I got her a Kenneth Cole frame and a Gucci frame as well. They both look just like the links I gave. All she has to do is go pick out what tint she wants to put to each of them.
I got her a pair of shoes and one of her favorite perfumes that came with the set.
You know the perfume, body cream, and lotion. It's called Samsara and I love it on her even more then she does I think. Just the smell of her still drives me nuts to this day.
So being we are both working pretty hard this week we agreed to have our own weekend get away and go to dinner. I'm also trying to surprise her with something else but I'm not going to say it here because she might read it and I don't want to ruin the surprise.

Other then that not much really going on.
New tenants are in and so far so good.
My mom is doing much better now that the apartment is rented and she is trying to catch up to all the bills she feel behind on when we didn't have that apartment rented.
I'm trying to stay away from negative people, places, and things.
Lately I have been just going to my program and coming home if I'm not working that day.
I still do talk to a few people who I consider a little closer to me and who I hope don't try to get over on me.
However if they do that's on them and they would only be fucking themselves because I can be your best friend or your worst enemy so the choice is up to them.
Harley got a haircut and he looks GREAT!!!
I swear he looks like a new dog! Were so happy that he is nice and shaved and clean and ready for the summer!
So I think that's it for now. Hope everyone is doing well and enjoying the summer!
I can't wait to go to the pool & the beach and chill out!
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Poison - Random Thoughts...

I didn't even open my eyes and I can feel the chills running down my spine. It feels like a cool spring breeze flowing threw the sleeves of your t-shirt, only these chills carry pain.
I would try to lay there as long as I could take it. I did this because I knew once I woke the day started and I was off to somewhat of a routine.
A routine that consisted of pricking myself with needles, stealing from stores, sometimes people, and most of all exhausting my soul more and more each day.
Some days I wanted to do it and the days I felt like not doing it I didn't have a choice because my body wouldn't let me do normal things unless that poison ran threw my veins.
In order to do simple things such as spend a nice BBQ with friend or family, or both I had to make sure I had plenty of poison in me and for me.
So many times I secretly wished that I would be putting too much and it would kill me.
It killed me all right. It killed me sluggishly, and made my soul wither away prick after prick, and night after night.
I tried to strain the poison from my body time after time, so many I lost count. It seemed that even after the poison was out of my body it was still in my mind. Still there whispering to me lies and promises.
Even after jail, and pain caused to my mother and my friends I still went back.
Today I still fight with that whisper, that poison, those chills.
I do not wish this on my worst enemy.

Beautiful Relapse?

Crazy week.
I went to the dentist yesterday for a cleaning and she took X-rays and she told me she couldn't even clean my teeth because she needed to correct 5 yes FIVE and the cleaning would come after if not later.
So she sat me down, numbed me up, and away she went.
She pulled 3 and took out cavities on 2 of them. She stitched up where she pulled out the 3 they were all in a row. I was in her chair for over 3hours.
Almost 40 hours later it still hurts.
I swore that I will never let anything like this ever happen again and I won't!
I don't want to be 40 years old and have no teeth in my mouth! ( like him ) I will tell you that I had no problems with my teeth until I got onto the program.
Even in all my years of getting high my teeth were fine, pretty much perfect really. Then once I got on the program they started cracking and hurting! So all that bullshit they tell us that it doesn't have any effect on your teeth is total crap!
The new tenants still have not moved in. I think there going to do it this weekend but still not sure. no big deal because there all paid up so I could care less really.
Eminem came out with his 5TH solo album called "RELAPSE".
All the songs are dope but "Beautiful" is the one I'm feeling the most. Here are the words and the song is posted at the bottom.
I got it and rock it on my ipod and even when I'm at my computer and never get tired of him.
He has not came out with a solo album in 5 years and the main reason was because he was addicted to pills and fell bad into his addiction.
His right hand man Proof was shot down and killed and that made him go into a deeper depression.
When this happened he overdosed on methadone pills.
He has talked about it in many articles and interviews.
Just a short one checking and hope all is well with everyone out there!
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Kiss My Dogs Ass!

I'm sorry but I'm pissed off right now.

My friend Judy who has her children in foster care got a visit for today and she brought them to my park for me to see them, play with them, let them see the dogs and so on.
So we were playing and I had Harley, and Myla only.
Now the main reason why I only brought Myla and Harley is because they are the most friendly dogs EVER.
People were coming over to pet them and play with them and everything.
2 park staff members come up to me and tell me that as long as they are on the leash it is OK.
Well after playing in the park for about an hour or so cops come in the park and say that I can't be here with them at ALL and I need to just take a walk.
Well I did take about 10 minute walk and then I came right back.
As soon as I sit down the cops came right back and Joann, Judy's sister told me they were walking over with there ticket pad in hand.
So right away I get up and we leave.
So whatever. The kids were leaving to go to either Joann's house or there own so I walked them to the train.
Once I got home I took Bandit out for his walk.
I walk into the park where the dogs are allowed to be and stay because it is the adult section of the park.
As soon as I step into the park I see a cop and she comes up to me with the only fucking attitude saying "your the reason I have to be here"
So if you know me then you KNOW I have to respond and not let something like this go.
She also said that people were calling and complaining saying the dogs were attacking the young kids.
Mind you as she saying this to me 1 of the staff members was standing there.
So I responded with "did you not tell me that as long as I had them on a leash it was OK. Also that I am allowed to be in this area with the dog as long as it was on a leash, and whoever called and said my dogs were attacking kids are fucking liars!"
She said are you cussing at me
I told her that I have freedom of speech and I can say whatever I like to whoever I like I have not broken any laws, and just say the truth your just mad because you have to actually do your job and stand on your feet!
she made some comment about "running me in"
I shot back with "for what? walking my dog on a leash in a park area where I am allowed? Let me tell you something my father is one of the head lawyers of New York top firms and if you THINK about doing something stupid I will bury you with a lawsuit and have you working in Alaska!!!"
After that she said something like "just make sure he is close to you" I told her her will walk however he wants as long as he is on his leash!!

Yo I got so freaking heated! These people who have only lived here for a year or so think they own the hood.
They think they own the park and once they see a pit bull they grab there kids and go far away.
I mean sometimes it bothers me but if your THAT dumb to think every pit bull is a killer then so be it. However don't call the cops and make up nothing but lies!
Then just because your a cop doesn't mean I have to give you respect. In my book you have to earn it!

Sorry for the rant it just got me soo mad. I was having such a great time with the kids and everything and here comes along the cops and the phone calls spewing nothing but lies and just because there pit bulls they have to be trouble dogs?!?
People need to stop looking at what everyone else is doing and look at there own dam selves!
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HAPPY MOTHERS DAY

Just a quick blog to say happy mothers day to all the mothers out there.
If you have a child or dog or cat or some kind of animal either way your a mother!

So I hope everyone will enjoy there day. No stress. No drama. Just good times, and good vibes!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY EVERYONE OUT THERE!!!!

Rought Draft..

As you can see I changed my blog up a bit. Just added a few new pix, alot of aniamsl, some mine and some from my good peeps, also links to some new sites I go to alot.
Also put up some pictures of my peeps that I talk to a regular basis.

If there's a problem with your picture being up there then please let me know right away.

This is just a rough draft as to what I want it took look like and I will probably spend more time on it later on this week.

So honestly what do you think?
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