Beautiful Relapse?

Crazy week.
I went to the dentist yesterday for a cleaning and she took X-rays and she told me she couldn't even clean my teeth because she needed to correct 5 yes FIVE and the cleaning would come after if not later.
So she sat me down, numbed me up, and away she went.
She pulled 3 and took out cavities on 2 of them. She stitched up where she pulled out the 3 they were all in a row. I was in her chair for over 3hours.
Almost 40 hours later it still hurts.
I swore that I will never let anything like this ever happen again and I won't!
I don't want to be 40 years old and have no teeth in my mouth! ( like him ) I will tell you that I had no problems with my teeth until I got onto the program.
Even in all my years of getting high my teeth were fine, pretty much perfect really. Then once I got on the program they started cracking and hurting! So all that bullshit they tell us that it doesn't have any effect on your teeth is total crap!
The new tenants still have not moved in. I think there going to do it this weekend but still not sure. no big deal because there all paid up so I could care less really.
Eminem came out with his 5TH solo album called "RELAPSE".
All the songs are dope but "Beautiful" is the one I'm feeling the most. Here are the words and the song is posted at the bottom.
I got it and rock it on my ipod and even when I'm at my computer and never get tired of him.
He has not came out with a solo album in 5 years and the main reason was because he was addicted to pills and fell bad into his addiction.
His right hand man Proof was shot down and killed and that made him go into a deeper depression.
When this happened he overdosed on methadone pills.
He has talked about it in many articles and interviews.
Just a short one checking and hope all is well with everyone out there!
Stay Up!

Kiss My Dogs Ass!

I'm sorry but I'm pissed off right now.

My friend Judy who has her children in foster care got a visit for today and she brought them to my park for me to see them, play with them, let them see the dogs and so on.
So we were playing and I had Harley, and Myla only.
Now the main reason why I only brought Myla and Harley is because they are the most friendly dogs EVER.
People were coming over to pet them and play with them and everything.
2 park staff members come up to me and tell me that as long as they are on the leash it is OK.
Well after playing in the park for about an hour or so cops come in the park and say that I can't be here with them at ALL and I need to just take a walk.
Well I did take about 10 minute walk and then I came right back.
As soon as I sit down the cops came right back and Joann, Judy's sister told me they were walking over with there ticket pad in hand.
So right away I get up and we leave.
So whatever. The kids were leaving to go to either Joann's house or there own so I walked them to the train.
Once I got home I took Bandit out for his walk.
I walk into the park where the dogs are allowed to be and stay because it is the adult section of the park.
As soon as I step into the park I see a cop and she comes up to me with the only fucking attitude saying "your the reason I have to be here"
So if you know me then you KNOW I have to respond and not let something like this go.
She also said that people were calling and complaining saying the dogs were attacking the young kids.
Mind you as she saying this to me 1 of the staff members was standing there.
So I responded with "did you not tell me that as long as I had them on a leash it was OK. Also that I am allowed to be in this area with the dog as long as it was on a leash, and whoever called and said my dogs were attacking kids are fucking liars!"
She said are you cussing at me
I told her that I have freedom of speech and I can say whatever I like to whoever I like I have not broken any laws, and just say the truth your just mad because you have to actually do your job and stand on your feet!
she made some comment about "running me in"
I shot back with "for what? walking my dog on a leash in a park area where I am allowed? Let me tell you something my father is one of the head lawyers of New York top firms and if you THINK about doing something stupid I will bury you with a lawsuit and have you working in Alaska!!!"
After that she said something like "just make sure he is close to you" I told her her will walk however he wants as long as he is on his leash!!

Yo I got so freaking heated! These people who have only lived here for a year or so think they own the hood.
They think they own the park and once they see a pit bull they grab there kids and go far away.
I mean sometimes it bothers me but if your THAT dumb to think every pit bull is a killer then so be it. However don't call the cops and make up nothing but lies!
Then just because your a cop doesn't mean I have to give you respect. In my book you have to earn it!

Sorry for the rant it just got me soo mad. I was having such a great time with the kids and everything and here comes along the cops and the phone calls spewing nothing but lies and just because there pit bulls they have to be trouble dogs?!?
People need to stop looking at what everyone else is doing and look at there own dam selves!
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HAPPY MOTHERS DAY

Just a quick blog to say happy mothers day to all the mothers out there.
If you have a child or dog or cat or some kind of animal either way your a mother!

So I hope everyone will enjoy there day. No stress. No drama. Just good times, and good vibes!

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY EVERYONE OUT THERE!!!!

Rought Draft..

As you can see I changed my blog up a bit. Just added a few new pix, alot of aniamsl, some mine and some from my good peeps, also links to some new sites I go to alot.
Also put up some pictures of my peeps that I talk to a regular basis.

If there's a problem with your picture being up there then please let me know right away.

This is just a rough draft as to what I want it took look like and I will probably spend more time on it later on this week.

So honestly what do you think?
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Stamp Out Hunger!!

This is something I have been trying to tell as many people as I can about it.
It seems to me that everyone I have told in person kind of just shrugged it off, but then again I have to remember the type of people I told.

Anyways it is called "Stamp Out Hunger".

It starts May 2ND
It ends May 9Th

All you need to do is get whatever non perishable food you have that you don't want or need and bring it t your local post office.
They will then bring it to the food banks and people in need of food will get it.

So here is the link to the site

If you could link it on your blog or email your friends, or make a collection at your job, anything you can do to help would be great and I think it is for a great cause.

Anyone who knows me, knows I am all about animals, which I am.
However this is something that I think is a really cool thing that could be done to help alot of people.
Today money does not come easy and believe it or not some people need to steal to eat, and I'm talking about people who are working legit jobs and I know this because I have seen it with my own eyes.
So lets get down and do this!
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Early Morning Thoughts...

Well it is 3:45 am and I am still awake. I have been watching some classic movies on Youtube like "Panic In Needle Park". I love that movie.
The first time I ever saw it, was when it was playing in BAM here in Brooklyn.
Gypsy and I went and saw it. It was my first time seeing it, but not for her. It was really cool seeing it on the big screen I must say.

I'm reading blogs, emails, also emailing my homie Shane because he is up as well. Only because theres a like 5 hour time difference so he is up at somewhat a normal hour.
I didn't work this week. My so called "friend" totally flaked on me.
Said that he was only able to use me for 4 hours and pay me 20 bucks. Now if you do that math that's 5/ hour. I'm sorry but I'm not a Mexican. I told him forget it, along with some other choice words.
I wasn't mad at that fact that what he wanted to pay me
I was mad at the fact that he asked ME to work and help HIM and then totally dissed me you know?

Also not to mention I did him a big favor by uploading his art, ( if that's what you want to call it, to me a 2 year old can draw better but whatever ) uploaded it to myspace, and made a slide show for him and posted up bulletins, and went all out on the thing for him.

See lately this is what is turning me off to people.
People seem to take my kindness for weakness and it's making me be a total fucking bitch. It's making me be cold. It's making me not want to even help people.
I try to do a few nice things for people and then you give them a quarter, they want a dollar.
Like I said just turning me away from even wanting to meet anyone, or talk to anyone, or do anything for anyone....

On an brighter note Gypsy and I went out to dinner tonight. We had a good time and just relaxed and enjoyed ourselves.
Something we surely needed.

Well almost 4am and I have to be up soon
Hope all is well with everyone!
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Making Headway!

Alot has been going on that's why I haven't been updating on the regular like I TRY to do.

Guess what people? The apartment is rented!
Thanks to everyone who said a prayer, even if it was a little one, even if it was a good thought!
The papers are signed, checks in the bank and they will be moving in soon.
We were able to re-do the floors, and the terrace as well! The place is looking great, even better then I would have even thought it would come out.
Also before the winter comes we will have put in new windows for them, so its going to look really great!
The view is great, nice skyline view of the city, alot of space, and just all around great place!

My mother is of course less stressed because it is finally rented. However from it not being rented almost 3 months she got behind on alot of bills but you know what, it's rented, and better to have a monthly income then nothing correct?

I have been doing well also. Trying my best to stay out of trouble.
Summer is coming and I just treated Gypsy to a pedicure, and got her about 10 pairs off all different flip-flops, and wedges for her to wear. That's all she likes to wear in the summer.
Once and awhile I will wear a pair but my thing is sneakers of course.

A friend of mine offered me to work with him tomorrow and maybe the rest of the week as well.
He sells books on the street. He knows his shit and knows what is worth money, and knows what he is doing I must give him that.
He sells mostly Art books, and books of that nature.
So I shall be with him working this week. Keeps me off the street and out of trouble.

My computer is up and running and so far so good.
I must admit that I am one smart cookie.
Everything the DELL technician was telling me to do on the phone I had already did. I knew it was the mother board as well as the hard drive.
If I had the parts I would have been able to put them in myself.
Well e have insurance with them so they came over and replaced the parts for free.
The only down side is the new hard drive doesn't have any of my old stuff on it. Like my music, pictures, etc.

So what I need to do is take mt old hard drive and put in another computer, and extract all the files.
I have a good friend in my hood who fixes computers and I'm more then sure he will let me use one of his computers to extract the files. One I extract them onto a portable hard drive I then put them on my new hard drive and everything is exactly the same.

The only thing I a little leery of is that if one of the files on the old hard drive is infected, all I'm going to be doing is taking the infected file and putting it into a brand new hard drive and then it will happen all over again.
So I'm pondering if I'm even going to do it or not.

I can take a computer apart.
I can take all the part for a computer and put it together from scratch.

I'm thinking of either going to school for computers, or maybe taking a course, just doing something.
Everything I know of computer I taught myself. I know everything from trial and error.
There were times where I would sit in front of the computer for 10-15 hours at a time until I got the problem fixed and you bet your sweet ass I got it fixed!

So that's whats been going on in a nutshell.
Apartment rented.
Trying to get some steady work.
Computer working fine.
Animals, family, and partner doing good.

I hope everyone else is doing good as well.

I don't want to make this post longer then what it is so I will blog on "the twins" and the program madness as well maybe later or tomorrow.
Again thanks to everyone who said a little prayer for meeeeeee.....
stay Up!

I'm Baaaaaack!

I'm FINALLY back up and running and better then ever. Only thing is I lost alot of my stuff because like a ass I did not back it up.
So some pix and music and stuff I will probably never get back.
The only way I think I will be able to do it is if I take my old hard drive and extract the file from another computer.

I have a guy around the hood that should let me use his store to do so. I do everything myself so it's no bother to him.

Just wanted everyone to know I'm back and I will be responding to emails, blogs, twitter, myspace, facebook, and all that good shit!

Man I felt like my left arm was missing when I did not have the net I swear! Made me wonder WTF did we do before?
I know I got alot of cleaning done, and also alot of reading.LOL

So I'm back bitches and better then ever!
Will be blogging again soon, and like I said responding to everyone as fast as I can.
Thanks to those who sent me emails and posted here as well!
Love to you all!
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My Computer Is Down

Just a quick post from my phone letting people know my computer is not working at all.
So plz dont think Im ignoring you
email me if you want to holla at me. Sacrcastic I love that idea, email me some pix! Of course when my computer gets work
sdawgz13@yahoo.com

Children Lost

I have blogged on the twin sisters before here and here

I don't know what makes me think of them but I do so I'm going to post whats been going on and however you take it believe me I wont think any less of you after you read what I have to post.

Lets start out with Judy the one with the 3 children. Freddy (20), Joesph (9), Joanna (12).
Now about 2 or so months ago she left the 2 younger ones home alone while her and her husband, Flip went to there program and Freddy went and hustled up money to support his dope habit.
While the kid were home alone ACS made a surprise visit and long story short Joanna answered the door and they saw they were home alone and they were taken from the mother and father.
As of now they are in a foster home in the Bronx with a woman Miss G. who has a house of military structure.
Joesph and Joanna are not the only children living there. She has 6 other foster children living with her as well.
Now Judy & Flip get weekly visits, I think 2 times a week.
On there very first visit they were late, Judy was stoned, and Flip was drunk and reeking of beer and vomiting.
Out of all the visits they have had since they have been taking they have only been on time maybe 2 or 3 times.
Every visit they go they never have money to buy the kids anything they want or NEED.
In there sick minds they think that as long as they give clean urine's there going to get them back.
Not even thinking to do something more to show ACS that you actually WANT them back in your life.
Every visit she has with them I try to send some gifts, you know like a wrestling toy for Joesph, or a doll for Joanna. Sometimes a game for both of them to play, or stickers, just something to show them I'm thinking of them and I do miss seeing them and having them around every now and then.
Freddy just came out of Rikers Island about 12days ago and already has a dope habit, already is robbing cars again, and already is back into lowlife grimy mode.
I saw him & Judy today and they begged me for money so he could get straight. He asked for a dollar promising me 5 tomorrow if I was to give it to him. I gave it but not cause I think I'm going to get 5 in return. I did it because I know what it is like to be dope sick and not have money to get straight. My wife asked why I gave it to him and I said well that was my good karma for the day, that's how I look at it.

Ok now for Joann the other twin.
About 2 months ago she comes up to me and tells me that she is pregnant. I told her your not keeping it right? She responded with "well we don't know yet, Nelson (her boyfriend of 8 years) and I have to talk it over and see what were going to do".
So I tried to put out that obvious facts to her.

-She is HIV+
-She is on Methadone
-She is still sniffing dope
-She is smoking crack a few times a week
-She is not taking her HIV meds (she sells them)
-She is selling drugs
-She is over 40
-She smokes cigarettes

-He is selling drugs
-He is sniffing dope
-He owes parole until 2012

Now with just those FACTS alone should be enough for anyone to have the common sense not to have the child.
She waited, and waited, and kept ping-ponging the idea around in her head of to have it or not to have it.
Finally last week she went and had an abortion.

In my honest opinion I think that was the right thing to do. All the child would know right from birth is pain and that's not fair.

So that's the latest saga on "the twins".
Children in the system. Older son on dope. Joann & man selling drugs.
Everyday it is a "he said she said" between both of them. Just plain non-sense!
That some days I sit there and I'm listening to either one of them or both and I say to myself what the FUCK am I doing..........