Rought Draft..

As you can see I changed my blog up a bit. Just added a few new pix, alot of aniamsl, some mine and some from my good peeps, also links to some new sites I go to alot.
Also put up some pictures of my peeps that I talk to a regular basis.

If there's a problem with your picture being up there then please let me know right away.

This is just a rough draft as to what I want it took look like and I will probably spend more time on it later on this week.

So honestly what do you think?
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Stamp Out Hunger!!

This is something I have been trying to tell as many people as I can about it.
It seems to me that everyone I have told in person kind of just shrugged it off, but then again I have to remember the type of people I told.

Anyways it is called "Stamp Out Hunger".

It starts May 2ND
It ends May 9Th

All you need to do is get whatever non perishable food you have that you don't want or need and bring it t your local post office.
They will then bring it to the food banks and people in need of food will get it.

So here is the link to the site

If you could link it on your blog or email your friends, or make a collection at your job, anything you can do to help would be great and I think it is for a great cause.

Anyone who knows me, knows I am all about animals, which I am.
However this is something that I think is a really cool thing that could be done to help alot of people.
Today money does not come easy and believe it or not some people need to steal to eat, and I'm talking about people who are working legit jobs and I know this because I have seen it with my own eyes.
So lets get down and do this!
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Early Morning Thoughts...

Well it is 3:45 am and I am still awake. I have been watching some classic movies on Youtube like "Panic In Needle Park". I love that movie.
The first time I ever saw it, was when it was playing in BAM here in Brooklyn.
Gypsy and I went and saw it. It was my first time seeing it, but not for her. It was really cool seeing it on the big screen I must say.

I'm reading blogs, emails, also emailing my homie Shane because he is up as well. Only because theres a like 5 hour time difference so he is up at somewhat a normal hour.
I didn't work this week. My so called "friend" totally flaked on me.
Said that he was only able to use me for 4 hours and pay me 20 bucks. Now if you do that math that's 5/ hour. I'm sorry but I'm not a Mexican. I told him forget it, along with some other choice words.
I wasn't mad at that fact that what he wanted to pay me
I was mad at the fact that he asked ME to work and help HIM and then totally dissed me you know?

Also not to mention I did him a big favor by uploading his art, ( if that's what you want to call it, to me a 2 year old can draw better but whatever ) uploaded it to myspace, and made a slide show for him and posted up bulletins, and went all out on the thing for him.

See lately this is what is turning me off to people.
People seem to take my kindness for weakness and it's making me be a total fucking bitch. It's making me be cold. It's making me not want to even help people.
I try to do a few nice things for people and then you give them a quarter, they want a dollar.
Like I said just turning me away from even wanting to meet anyone, or talk to anyone, or do anything for anyone....

On an brighter note Gypsy and I went out to dinner tonight. We had a good time and just relaxed and enjoyed ourselves.
Something we surely needed.

Well almost 4am and I have to be up soon
Hope all is well with everyone!
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Making Headway!

Alot has been going on that's why I haven't been updating on the regular like I TRY to do.

Guess what people? The apartment is rented!
Thanks to everyone who said a prayer, even if it was a little one, even if it was a good thought!
The papers are signed, checks in the bank and they will be moving in soon.
We were able to re-do the floors, and the terrace as well! The place is looking great, even better then I would have even thought it would come out.
Also before the winter comes we will have put in new windows for them, so its going to look really great!
The view is great, nice skyline view of the city, alot of space, and just all around great place!

My mother is of course less stressed because it is finally rented. However from it not being rented almost 3 months she got behind on alot of bills but you know what, it's rented, and better to have a monthly income then nothing correct?

I have been doing well also. Trying my best to stay out of trouble.
Summer is coming and I just treated Gypsy to a pedicure, and got her about 10 pairs off all different flip-flops, and wedges for her to wear. That's all she likes to wear in the summer.
Once and awhile I will wear a pair but my thing is sneakers of course.

A friend of mine offered me to work with him tomorrow and maybe the rest of the week as well.
He sells books on the street. He knows his shit and knows what is worth money, and knows what he is doing I must give him that.
He sells mostly Art books, and books of that nature.
So I shall be with him working this week. Keeps me off the street and out of trouble.

My computer is up and running and so far so good.
I must admit that I am one smart cookie.
Everything the DELL technician was telling me to do on the phone I had already did. I knew it was the mother board as well as the hard drive.
If I had the parts I would have been able to put them in myself.
Well e have insurance with them so they came over and replaced the parts for free.
The only down side is the new hard drive doesn't have any of my old stuff on it. Like my music, pictures, etc.

So what I need to do is take mt old hard drive and put in another computer, and extract all the files.
I have a good friend in my hood who fixes computers and I'm more then sure he will let me use one of his computers to extract the files. One I extract them onto a portable hard drive I then put them on my new hard drive and everything is exactly the same.

The only thing I a little leery of is that if one of the files on the old hard drive is infected, all I'm going to be doing is taking the infected file and putting it into a brand new hard drive and then it will happen all over again.
So I'm pondering if I'm even going to do it or not.

I can take a computer apart.
I can take all the part for a computer and put it together from scratch.

I'm thinking of either going to school for computers, or maybe taking a course, just doing something.
Everything I know of computer I taught myself. I know everything from trial and error.
There were times where I would sit in front of the computer for 10-15 hours at a time until I got the problem fixed and you bet your sweet ass I got it fixed!

So that's whats been going on in a nutshell.
Apartment rented.
Trying to get some steady work.
Computer working fine.
Animals, family, and partner doing good.

I hope everyone else is doing good as well.

I don't want to make this post longer then what it is so I will blog on "the twins" and the program madness as well maybe later or tomorrow.
Again thanks to everyone who said a little prayer for meeeeeee.....
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I'm Baaaaaack!

I'm FINALLY back up and running and better then ever. Only thing is I lost alot of my stuff because like a ass I did not back it up.
So some pix and music and stuff I will probably never get back.
The only way I think I will be able to do it is if I take my old hard drive and extract the file from another computer.

I have a guy around the hood that should let me use his store to do so. I do everything myself so it's no bother to him.

Just wanted everyone to know I'm back and I will be responding to emails, blogs, twitter, myspace, facebook, and all that good shit!

Man I felt like my left arm was missing when I did not have the net I swear! Made me wonder WTF did we do before?
I know I got alot of cleaning done, and also alot of reading.LOL

So I'm back bitches and better then ever!
Will be blogging again soon, and like I said responding to everyone as fast as I can.
Thanks to those who sent me emails and posted here as well!
Love to you all!
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My Computer Is Down

Just a quick post from my phone letting people know my computer is not working at all.
So plz dont think Im ignoring you
email me if you want to holla at me. Sacrcastic I love that idea, email me some pix! Of course when my computer gets work
sdawgz13@yahoo.com

Children Lost

I have blogged on the twin sisters before here and here

I don't know what makes me think of them but I do so I'm going to post whats been going on and however you take it believe me I wont think any less of you after you read what I have to post.

Lets start out with Judy the one with the 3 children. Freddy (20), Joesph (9), Joanna (12).
Now about 2 or so months ago she left the 2 younger ones home alone while her and her husband, Flip went to there program and Freddy went and hustled up money to support his dope habit.
While the kid were home alone ACS made a surprise visit and long story short Joanna answered the door and they saw they were home alone and they were taken from the mother and father.
As of now they are in a foster home in the Bronx with a woman Miss G. who has a house of military structure.
Joesph and Joanna are not the only children living there. She has 6 other foster children living with her as well.
Now Judy & Flip get weekly visits, I think 2 times a week.
On there very first visit they were late, Judy was stoned, and Flip was drunk and reeking of beer and vomiting.
Out of all the visits they have had since they have been taking they have only been on time maybe 2 or 3 times.
Every visit they go they never have money to buy the kids anything they want or NEED.
In there sick minds they think that as long as they give clean urine's there going to get them back.
Not even thinking to do something more to show ACS that you actually WANT them back in your life.
Every visit she has with them I try to send some gifts, you know like a wrestling toy for Joesph, or a doll for Joanna. Sometimes a game for both of them to play, or stickers, just something to show them I'm thinking of them and I do miss seeing them and having them around every now and then.
Freddy just came out of Rikers Island about 12days ago and already has a dope habit, already is robbing cars again, and already is back into lowlife grimy mode.
I saw him & Judy today and they begged me for money so he could get straight. He asked for a dollar promising me 5 tomorrow if I was to give it to him. I gave it but not cause I think I'm going to get 5 in return. I did it because I know what it is like to be dope sick and not have money to get straight. My wife asked why I gave it to him and I said well that was my good karma for the day, that's how I look at it.

Ok now for Joann the other twin.
About 2 months ago she comes up to me and tells me that she is pregnant. I told her your not keeping it right? She responded with "well we don't know yet, Nelson (her boyfriend of 8 years) and I have to talk it over and see what were going to do".
So I tried to put out that obvious facts to her.

-She is HIV+
-She is on Methadone
-She is still sniffing dope
-She is smoking crack a few times a week
-She is not taking her HIV meds (she sells them)
-She is selling drugs
-She is over 40
-She smokes cigarettes

-He is selling drugs
-He is sniffing dope
-He owes parole until 2012

Now with just those FACTS alone should be enough for anyone to have the common sense not to have the child.
She waited, and waited, and kept ping-ponging the idea around in her head of to have it or not to have it.
Finally last week she went and had an abortion.

In my honest opinion I think that was the right thing to do. All the child would know right from birth is pain and that's not fair.

So that's the latest saga on "the twins".
Children in the system. Older son on dope. Joann & man selling drugs.
Everyday it is a "he said she said" between both of them. Just plain non-sense!
That some days I sit there and I'm listening to either one of them or both and I say to myself what the FUCK am I doing..........

If I Was A PitBull

Just want to say sorry I haven't updated lately but I have been trying to keep in touch with everyone by email, texting, yahoo messenger, as well as a quick blog comment post.

Still have alot going on as far as the apartment, it is STILL not rented. I don't know whats the problem and why it is taking so dam long. I mean I know people don't have money right now but the people who come to see this apartment have great jobs and they are financial stable. So again keep me & my mom in your prayers concerning that.

The picture above was made and sent to me from BABZ a good friend that I met online and we hooked up and chilled in Brooklyn a few times!

Update on Mikey:
He has his own page on the Bidawee site.
Here is the link to MIKEY

I worked 2days as a temp in a office for a friend of Gypsys and who knows it might become something more, you never know. If not then no biggie, I will just keep sending out my resumes and see what becomes of it.

Other then that I hope everyone is doing well, and everything is going good.
Also blogger now allows you to post from your phone. I don't know if you can post pictures and links and stuff but I'm sure I will figure it out. So if you come on and see some crazy shit, just pay it no mind, means I'm trying out the mobile posting thingy..

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New Home For Patty

I hate Mondays and I think I'm safe to say that most people do as well.
Had a great weekend. Got to spend some alone time with Gypsy and get away. Went out to a nice diner as well. Really enjoyed it.

Got some good news as well. Patty Cake got a home!! She went home with the person who adopted her over the weekend! Mikey is still there, however he is doing really well. Getting along with the other cats, playing, and just having a good time! That was something that I really needed to hear.

As I said in my last post 2 people were coming to look at the apartment this weekend.
My mother called the Real Estate woman and she did not answer. She called her all day and still no answer.
Right now it is Monday 6:30 PM and STILL no answer. There better be someone in her family dead for this.
I mean come on you just don't do that kind of thing. Be a professional and make a call to your client and let us know whats the deal, and whats going on. If you couldn't make it then so be it, at least give my mother the respect of calling back and letting her know that, right?

Yesterday I finally watched "SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE" and I must say I loved it! I now know why it has won so many awards and everyone is talking about it.
It was a story that was well told, and put together really good! Did anyone else see it? What did you think?
I must say I knew the answer to the last question. Did anyone else. (Please don't give the answer or put spoilers. I don't want to ruin it for the people who haven't seen it.)

This morning I felt like I had no energy. I felt like just staying in bed all dam day, but I didn't. I got up, showered, got dressed and went to my program even though I really did not feel like it.
I saw my friend Lisa, and talked for a bit with her and then I walked home early because I knew I had to do laundry.
Even though I hate doing laundry I don't want anyone else to do mine except for myself or Gypsy. I feel like someone working in a laundry mat is not going to take care of my clothes and laundry more then myself and I also feel like I know I'm getting them cleaned properly when doing it myself.
So I just came back from putting them in the wash. I gave my dogs a quick walk and now I'm going back to put everything in the dryers.

Vacancy In Brooklyn

So much has been going on this past month. It feels like I haven't posted in forever. I'm going to try to give everyone the short version and not make this a long ass post.
Just seems to me like there aren't enough hours in a day...

One of my mothers apartments in our home is vacant and needed some repairs before being able to get rented.
So my brother has been doing the heavy work, and some plumbing as well. I agreed to do the painting, and cleaning and I also agreed to help him with anything he needed me for.
Me and him are not getting along, however I am only doing this for my mother.

So this week I went over there and painted for 2 days straight. I woke up on Tuesday early and went to my program, then right to my mothers.
I got there around 10am and didn't stop till about 11pm. Of course I took a break to eat, and smoke here and there but other then that I was like a robot.
I was so beat I just stayed over my mothers house, and then woke up early again the next day and did it again.
I finished the painting around 6pm that day and then started the cleaning and finally got done around 10pm.
I went to my apartment that night and just passed out.

So now there are minor things that need to be done in the apartment. My mother has 2 Real Estates working with her, as well as one of our tenants sent out some emails to her friends and got some responses from them as well.
We have had a few people come to see the apartment, and another 2 this weekend.

I cant even begin to tell how important it is for this apartment to get rented.
With this apartment not being rented, and having to do repairs, and bills keep coming in it seems to be getting really messed up.
Now I know everyone all over is having problems and work and money is messed up all over but if you pray to whoever your higher power is I ask you to please say one for my mother & I that things work out with the apartment and the house.

Lately it just seems as if every time we get 1 foot ahead something comes and knocks us 6 feet back.
To top shit off my sister had a fight with my mother on the phone and said some really mean shit. I only knew because I sent a email to my sister, just saying hello and telling her whats going on with our mom and the house and everything and then she told me how she fought with her over the phone.
I asked my mother and she told me what she said while crying the whole time.
Now I wanted to KILL her for making my mother feel like this, and saying such mean things.
I wanted to respond to the email however my mother asked me not to, so I didn't.
My main thing was how DARE you make her cry when she has so much on her plate right now.
My sister lives about 100 miles away and doesn't know whats really going on, she doesn't see how stressed my mother is, she doesn't know how my mother calls me when shes stressed, or when her sugar is high and shes worried, or when she just wants to talk and see whats going on. Just PISSED ME OFF really fucking bad you know?

Hey I'm sure I gave my mother plenty of nights crying, and worrying how and where I was and what was going on with me. I know I did things wrong and I can't undo them.
Now when I see my mother hurt it makes me want to KILL and out of the 3 of us it seems I'm the only one who feels like this and my mother knows and sees as well.
So now it's going on about a week since the email from my sister and I was going to respond many times but I just did what my mother asked and didn't, wont.

Tonight is Friday and were hoping for a great weekend. I hope you all have a great one as well.
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