Children Lost

I have blogged on the twin sisters before here and here

I don't know what makes me think of them but I do so I'm going to post whats been going on and however you take it believe me I wont think any less of you after you read what I have to post.

Lets start out with Judy the one with the 3 children. Freddy (20), Joesph (9), Joanna (12).
Now about 2 or so months ago she left the 2 younger ones home alone while her and her husband, Flip went to there program and Freddy went and hustled up money to support his dope habit.
While the kid were home alone ACS made a surprise visit and long story short Joanna answered the door and they saw they were home alone and they were taken from the mother and father.
As of now they are in a foster home in the Bronx with a woman Miss G. who has a house of military structure.
Joesph and Joanna are not the only children living there. She has 6 other foster children living with her as well.
Now Judy & Flip get weekly visits, I think 2 times a week.
On there very first visit they were late, Judy was stoned, and Flip was drunk and reeking of beer and vomiting.
Out of all the visits they have had since they have been taking they have only been on time maybe 2 or 3 times.
Every visit they go they never have money to buy the kids anything they want or NEED.
In there sick minds they think that as long as they give clean urine's there going to get them back.
Not even thinking to do something more to show ACS that you actually WANT them back in your life.
Every visit she has with them I try to send some gifts, you know like a wrestling toy for Joesph, or a doll for Joanna. Sometimes a game for both of them to play, or stickers, just something to show them I'm thinking of them and I do miss seeing them and having them around every now and then.
Freddy just came out of Rikers Island about 12days ago and already has a dope habit, already is robbing cars again, and already is back into lowlife grimy mode.
I saw him & Judy today and they begged me for money so he could get straight. He asked for a dollar promising me 5 tomorrow if I was to give it to him. I gave it but not cause I think I'm going to get 5 in return. I did it because I know what it is like to be dope sick and not have money to get straight. My wife asked why I gave it to him and I said well that was my good karma for the day, that's how I look at it.

Ok now for Joann the other twin.
About 2 months ago she comes up to me and tells me that she is pregnant. I told her your not keeping it right? She responded with "well we don't know yet, Nelson (her boyfriend of 8 years) and I have to talk it over and see what were going to do".
So I tried to put out that obvious facts to her.

-She is HIV+
-She is on Methadone
-She is still sniffing dope
-She is smoking crack a few times a week
-She is not taking her HIV meds (she sells them)
-She is selling drugs
-She is over 40
-She smokes cigarettes

-He is selling drugs
-He is sniffing dope
-He owes parole until 2012

Now with just those FACTS alone should be enough for anyone to have the common sense not to have the child.
She waited, and waited, and kept ping-ponging the idea around in her head of to have it or not to have it.
Finally last week she went and had an abortion.

In my honest opinion I think that was the right thing to do. All the child would know right from birth is pain and that's not fair.

So that's the latest saga on "the twins".
Children in the system. Older son on dope. Joann & man selling drugs.
Everyday it is a "he said she said" between both of them. Just plain non-sense!
That some days I sit there and I'm listening to either one of them or both and I say to myself what the FUCK am I doing..........

If I Was A PitBull

Just want to say sorry I haven't updated lately but I have been trying to keep in touch with everyone by email, texting, yahoo messenger, as well as a quick blog comment post.

Still have alot going on as far as the apartment, it is STILL not rented. I don't know whats the problem and why it is taking so dam long. I mean I know people don't have money right now but the people who come to see this apartment have great jobs and they are financial stable. So again keep me & my mom in your prayers concerning that.

The picture above was made and sent to me from BABZ a good friend that I met online and we hooked up and chilled in Brooklyn a few times!

Update on Mikey:
He has his own page on the Bidawee site.
Here is the link to MIKEY

I worked 2days as a temp in a office for a friend of Gypsys and who knows it might become something more, you never know. If not then no biggie, I will just keep sending out my resumes and see what becomes of it.

Other then that I hope everyone is doing well, and everything is going good.
Also blogger now allows you to post from your phone. I don't know if you can post pictures and links and stuff but I'm sure I will figure it out. So if you come on and see some crazy shit, just pay it no mind, means I'm trying out the mobile posting thingy..

Stay Up!

New Home For Patty

I hate Mondays and I think I'm safe to say that most people do as well.
Had a great weekend. Got to spend some alone time with Gypsy and get away. Went out to a nice diner as well. Really enjoyed it.

Got some good news as well. Patty Cake got a home!! She went home with the person who adopted her over the weekend! Mikey is still there, however he is doing really well. Getting along with the other cats, playing, and just having a good time! That was something that I really needed to hear.

As I said in my last post 2 people were coming to look at the apartment this weekend.
My mother called the Real Estate woman and she did not answer. She called her all day and still no answer.
Right now it is Monday 6:30 PM and STILL no answer. There better be someone in her family dead for this.
I mean come on you just don't do that kind of thing. Be a professional and make a call to your client and let us know whats the deal, and whats going on. If you couldn't make it then so be it, at least give my mother the respect of calling back and letting her know that, right?

Yesterday I finally watched "SLUMDOG MILLIONAIRE" and I must say I loved it! I now know why it has won so many awards and everyone is talking about it.
It was a story that was well told, and put together really good! Did anyone else see it? What did you think?
I must say I knew the answer to the last question. Did anyone else. (Please don't give the answer or put spoilers. I don't want to ruin it for the people who haven't seen it.)

This morning I felt like I had no energy. I felt like just staying in bed all dam day, but I didn't. I got up, showered, got dressed and went to my program even though I really did not feel like it.
I saw my friend Lisa, and talked for a bit with her and then I walked home early because I knew I had to do laundry.
Even though I hate doing laundry I don't want anyone else to do mine except for myself or Gypsy. I feel like someone working in a laundry mat is not going to take care of my clothes and laundry more then myself and I also feel like I know I'm getting them cleaned properly when doing it myself.
So I just came back from putting them in the wash. I gave my dogs a quick walk and now I'm going back to put everything in the dryers.

Vacancy In Brooklyn

So much has been going on this past month. It feels like I haven't posted in forever. I'm going to try to give everyone the short version and not make this a long ass post.
Just seems to me like there aren't enough hours in a day...

One of my mothers apartments in our home is vacant and needed some repairs before being able to get rented.
So my brother has been doing the heavy work, and some plumbing as well. I agreed to do the painting, and cleaning and I also agreed to help him with anything he needed me for.
Me and him are not getting along, however I am only doing this for my mother.

So this week I went over there and painted for 2 days straight. I woke up on Tuesday early and went to my program, then right to my mothers.
I got there around 10am and didn't stop till about 11pm. Of course I took a break to eat, and smoke here and there but other then that I was like a robot.
I was so beat I just stayed over my mothers house, and then woke up early again the next day and did it again.
I finished the painting around 6pm that day and then started the cleaning and finally got done around 10pm.
I went to my apartment that night and just passed out.

So now there are minor things that need to be done in the apartment. My mother has 2 Real Estates working with her, as well as one of our tenants sent out some emails to her friends and got some responses from them as well.
We have had a few people come to see the apartment, and another 2 this weekend.

I cant even begin to tell how important it is for this apartment to get rented.
With this apartment not being rented, and having to do repairs, and bills keep coming in it seems to be getting really messed up.
Now I know everyone all over is having problems and work and money is messed up all over but if you pray to whoever your higher power is I ask you to please say one for my mother & I that things work out with the apartment and the house.

Lately it just seems as if every time we get 1 foot ahead something comes and knocks us 6 feet back.
To top shit off my sister had a fight with my mother on the phone and said some really mean shit. I only knew because I sent a email to my sister, just saying hello and telling her whats going on with our mom and the house and everything and then she told me how she fought with her over the phone.
I asked my mother and she told me what she said while crying the whole time.
Now I wanted to KILL her for making my mother feel like this, and saying such mean things.
I wanted to respond to the email however my mother asked me not to, so I didn't.
My main thing was how DARE you make her cry when she has so much on her plate right now.
My sister lives about 100 miles away and doesn't know whats really going on, she doesn't see how stressed my mother is, she doesn't know how my mother calls me when shes stressed, or when her sugar is high and shes worried, or when she just wants to talk and see whats going on. Just PISSED ME OFF really fucking bad you know?

Hey I'm sure I gave my mother plenty of nights crying, and worrying how and where I was and what was going on with me. I know I did things wrong and I can't undo them.
Now when I see my mother hurt it makes me want to KILL and out of the 3 of us it seems I'm the only one who feels like this and my mother knows and sees as well.
So now it's going on about a week since the email from my sister and I was going to respond many times but I just did what my mother asked and didn't, wont.

Tonight is Friday and were hoping for a great weekend. I hope you all have a great one as well.
Stay Up!

Not Missing Much I See..

As I'm trying to catch up on everything on the Internet because of not having it for a week I see I really didn't miss that much.
Yes I have alot of blog posts to read and emails to answer and stuff of that nature but after that its really nothing.

I did miss alot on dlisted. I love that site. Its just all around great, and they follow everything and anything of interest.
The Myspace, FaceBook, Twitter, and all that bullshit I see nothing has changed and I just needed to approve some comments and answer to messages.

It's funny when I didn't have my computer I thought like what the fuck I was missing. Now that I have it I find myself looking for things of interest to read and follow up on.

I have always enjoyed the wikipedia site. I just love that they have so much information and everything is just a click away. If your not on that site often you really should be because its so great and you have the world at your fingertips.

I'm doing well, and so is Gypsy and my mother.
I'm trying to help my mother get one of our apartments together so we can get it rented out. I really hope that it gets rented soon. I know my mother is getting stressed over it and I really don't think she can go another month without that income coming in for her.

Other then all that my new keyboard and mouse are working great and I'm really digging the wireless shit. I don't know why I haven't gotten it sooner. The computer seems to be running fine. I do know for sure that my next computer if it is a desktop or Laptop its definitely going to be a MAC! This is without question.
Macs do not get the same problems that PCs get such as viruses, spam, spy ware, and all the other SHIT that a PC gets.
All in due time.....
Stay Up!

What Did I Do BeforeThe Internet?

Last Tuesday my computer was bugging out on me. I tried to fix it myself because I have done so in the past but it seemed that the USB ports were burned out because both the keyboard and mouse were note responding. Now for both of them not to be working and burn out at the same time I taught it had to be the USB ports. Plus I took the mouse and keyboard to the library and they worked on there computer just fine.
So Yesterday I lugged my computer to the repair store and he does a free evaluation and he told me that my USB ports were fine and it was in fact my keyboard and mouse. I explained that I took them to the library and they worked fine there.
Whatever.
I went to Radio Shack and got a wireless keyboard and mouse set with a 1 year warranty for 40 bucks. I thought that was a pretty good deal seeing as its wireless and its also Logitech, which happens to be a good brand name.
So my computer is now up and running.
I went a week with out really going on the net and I started wondering what the fuck did I do when we didn't even have the Internet?
I will tell you this I did get alot done this week. I did some laundry, ran some errands for my mother. On Saturday Gypsy & I went and did food shopping. I have been cleaning the house here and there. I sat down and wrote letters to a friend I have in prison.
I did miss the Internet like crazy I'm not even going to front.

Other then that all my fur babies are doing well. I have been taking them to run in the park at night as much as I can. Some nights I cant bring them there because the people complain and call the cops. Really only because there pit bulls. If they were any other dogs, or small dogs they wouldn't even bother and I know this for a fact.
One day I was sitting in the park with Myla, and Bandit only and cops came in the park and told me someone called saying there was pit bulls terrorizing people and children!
I showed them my Animal Rescue ID and I said "if they weren't pit bulls would you have even came here and stopped me" and one cops said no, and yes its because there pit bulls. So I'm just sick of people and how they look and view pit bulls all together!

So I have alot of blog posts to read and respond to. I also have some emails I need to get to as well.
I hope everyone is doing fine and well.

BLOG LOVE!!

That's right bitches I got a award!
That's right I have people that read my shit and LOVE my silly ass!

Here's the kick ass mom that gave to me Fractalmom

Thanks Frac and everyone else that shows me nothing but love!!

I will make another post about my weekend and shit thats been going on with me and Mi Vida Loca

Stay Up!

New Begining For Cats

Well I just got home from bringing the cats to the Bideawee.
I posted about it yesterday here.

It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. Of course I cried but hey anyone that knows me knows I love animals more then people and I treat my animals like my own children.
I love animals and probably would save a animal before a human. Call it whatever you want but I'm always speaking my mind and this is how I feel and most likely always will.

Mikey was very nervous and scared, Patty was also scared but they both did well. They both passed there tests, and there both healthy and there going to stay there until they get adopted. Also one of my good friends is the one who takes care of them, making sure there fed, litter changed and clean, making sure they get some kind of human contact each day as well. So I feel even better because I know shes doing that and she is going to keep me updated weekly on how they are doing.

Other then that were now working on getting the apartment fixed up, cleaned out, and painted.
It will take some time but were working overtime on it and were going to do our best to get it done as soon as we can.

As of right now I'm not even looking for work because I know this next couple of weeks I'm going to be needed helping my mom and I cant take on a job right now. So after this is all done and settled I'm going to go back to the drawing board and hit the working field hardcore.

Looking forward to the weekend and spending some time with Gypsy and just really being able to chill out and not constantly be on the go like I have been the past month or so.
Hope everyone is doing well. If I haven't posted on your blog please don't take it personal I will get to you soon.
Have a great weekend everyone and Stay Up!

Patty Cake & Mikey I Tried My Best!

Been kind of down these past few days because I have had alot on my plate.
I'm going to try to write the short version.

One of my moms tenants who has lived with us for over 10 years had a nervous breakdown and had to be put into the hospital. Now like I said he has been with us for 10 years so we saw him as one of the family. So this was very hard for us.
When he left we went up to see the apartment and he had alot of stuff that needs to be taken out. There is some things that need to be fixed up and of course it needs to be painted.
Now about last summer I got him a cat from the shelter after one of his passed, to keep his other cat, Mikey, company.
I went and picked one out for him and got it and brought it to him and everything.
Now since he has been in the hospital we have been talking to his parents and they want to help get the stuff out of the apartment but they like don't want anything to do with the cats for some reason.
His mother made a comment like "Just open the window and let the loose they will be fine".
Then a few days ago his father called my mother and told her he paid for the 2 cats to be picked up from the house, and then they were going to be put down.
My mother told him that is NOT an option.
So I made a few calls and one of my very close rescue friends pulled some strings and were getting her into the Bideawee, which is not a shelter, its much better. Also my friend is the one who overlooks the animals, making sure they are fed, clean water litter, food, toys, and whatnot.
She will also give the go ahead to the person who wants to adopt, and I have faith in her that she will give them to the right people.

Now of course I am a mess, because I love these animals, I saved one of them, Patty Cake and now I have to bring her back and I feel just HORRIBLE.
I have to realize and face the facts I cant change things I have no control over....
So with having to bring the cats, help my mother fix up the apartment, and get it rented and everything I am very stressed.
Whatever your higher power is, can you please say a prayer for these animals that they get a good home and there well taken care of, and there not scared, and afraid and never get hurt.
That would mean alot to me.
Also if your in NY and are interested in a cat or know someone PLEASE don't hesitate to contact me.
I can have them taken to you if your in the city, and if your a little more far away I'm sure we can work something out.

Lord Give me strength......

Other then that Gypsy and I had a great Valentines weekend and had a good time jus spending it together.
We watched some movies, had some good lovin, and just had a really nice time.
One of the movies we watched was the new Clint Eastwood movie, Grand Torino.
Also watched Factory Girl which is about Edie Sedgwick a VERY intresting person and once you start reading about her and seeing how she lived you will be pulled in to her beauty. She was just soooo beautiful!
Also watched some other movies here and there....

Hope every enjoyed there weekend as much as we did.
So everyone Stay Up Till Next Time...

Crazy Month

Whats up people?
Alot has been going on over here on my end that's why I haven't been posting often.
First off one of my mothers tenants left and I'm helping my brother fix it up for her to show to other potential tenants. This has to get done at least a week before next month that way she doesn't lose a months rent.
The guy who left, Matt, I adopted a cat, Patty Cake, to him after his had passed to keep his other cat, Mikey, company. Well hes gone and he left the cats and is leaving me and & mom to take care of them. So I'm trying to reach out to some of my rescue groups to help me get them homes. There great cats, friendly and very lovable.
On Sunday I took Myla, my foster dog, and Jedi my foster cat to get spayed and neutered. I was awake at 6am and down there by 7am and I was the last one to make it in thank God!
Everything worked out great and there both doing well.
Myla still snores, and Jedi is still his ninja self.
I have been looking for work, legit work and it seems like nothing has come threw. I will keep on trying and give it my best. Last week someone contacted me about doing some dog walking but she flaked out on me, no big deal when one door closes another one opens right?
Also been trying to stay away from the people at the program. Really the only one I even want to talk to is Lisa, my friend who I have blogged about before, when she was in the hospital and whatnot. Other then that the other people in the program I see daily I really have no desire to converse with them. When talking to them its always the same conversation, and its never anything of substance. Its either about drugs, pills, or gossip about this one or that one, or problems there having and favors they want. Someone is always wanting something, either a smoke, a dollar, or to use my phone.
Seems like no one has a contract phone plan and everyone knows I do so there always asking to use my phone because either they don't have minutes, or they will make up some excuse like "the #9 on my phone doesn't work and the call I need to make has the #9 in it", or just out right "I don't want to waste my minutes". they don't want to waster Their minutes but they have NO problem using mine. Makes me fucking laugh.
Those are just a few examples of what I see and deal with when talking or being around them.
Even though I use drugs I don't make it my life. I like to talk about other things, I like to watch a TV show or read the news and then go up to someone and talk about it and hold a decent "normal" conversation but with these people that's just not possible. They don't have the intellect or the mind span to keep a conversation like that, that and all they want to talk about is drugs, pills and gossip, its old and boring to me.
Its played out to me, and I'm 28, these are people that are in there 40's so you would think it would be played out to them as well but sadly its not....
Valentines Day is on Saturday and I want to do something really nice for Gypsy, I'm not going to post it just in case she reads this post, but I will post it after.

Well I think that's about it for now. Hope everyone has a good Valentines Day, and if you dont have a Valentine dont sweat it, just have a good weekend!
Stay Up!